Story Of My Life *1d and 5SOS*

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Ears in, world out. Every day I wait for this great moment. The metal echoes through my ears. It gives me a wonderful, powerful feeling. No pain, no anger. Only music. While I lie on the bed I notice how shadow moses from bring me the horizon slowly take over my thoughts. For a little while, unfortunately I know. The same every day, numbing every day, for a moment. And then it's over again. Am I back in the real world. Every day the anesthetic lasts shorter, I keep thinking. I notice how shadow moses fades into the background and my thoughts take over my head again. I don't want this anymore, this pain. I close my eyes and try to focus on my music. It doesn't work, unfortunately.

Still with my eyes closed, I fumble for my cell phone on the nightstand. When I get it, I turn on my side and put on twitter. I'm scrolling down my timeline, normal people. I only have 42 followers, I know them all. I don't know a few. Nobody knows I'm Zayn's sister, to them I'm just an ordinary 16 year old. I consciously chose that. I want to live a normal life, as normal as possible...

Unfortunately it doesn't really work... or is this normal? This harass? destroy me? Is this all part of it? With a normal life?

I scroll on, just silly tweets about what people are doing. Then my gaze lingers on a tweet: @onedirection: Big news! A new tour is coming! tour dates here.

There's a link with it... angrily I throw my cell phone away. He lands on the floor with a bang and takes my ears with him. I don't care, I don't care anymore. Rotten tour, rotten school and rotten life!

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