Chills

Breathing.

TW// ACCIDENT AND MENTIONS OF DEATH

FLASHBACK:

ANA'S POV:

"Won't you introduce her, Roman?" His friends ask him, laughing. I don't  understand what was so funny.

I felt a sudden urge to run away. I looked at Jonah who in return looked away. My eyes brimmed with tears. I felt someone slip their hand through my waist, I looked up to see Roman.

" I hate you. I hate you." I whispered repeatedly to him.
"Soon enough, you'll start loving me. Get used to it." He smirked.

I pulled away from his disgusting touch. His face turned stone cold because of me "disrespecting" him in front of his friends.

His hand grabbed my arm tightly. My lips started quivering and tears started flowing freely.

"Next time, try this and you'll not be able to see yourself in the mirror for days." He says in a cold tone.

"Leave me, please." I request him.
"If I had to let go, I'd never do so much just to get you." He rolls his eyes.

I look down, trembling. His hand still on my arm, red with his grip.

I don't want to be here. I agree I made a fair share of my mistakes but this is too much for me to handle. Truth never wins. The good ones never win.

I don't want to be a toy for someone. Someone like him. He just is a sadistic person, enjoying the pain of others. I am tired, I am tired of everything, I don't know what is happening to me , I was not like this before. I want to live and at the same time I just for to end everything.

Everyone will think I'm okay, just because I will act like I used to infront of them . They are right, you never really know what's going on with a person until you walk in their shoes. I don't want my life to be like this , I didn't imagine it to be like this. I just wanted to live fearlessly, not being stuck with someone. I just want to sleep, sleep until this all gets over, I don't want to keep existing like this. He treats people like an object, okay I agree , I deserve all of this , it's my fault but I am scared of the consequences that are still left.

  I never thought myself to be like this , I am drowning and everyone is just watching . I don't know if I should give up or not , and that's the worst thing. I am not feeling okay. What is happening is not okay. I need someone with me , to fight them , I can't handle this anymore , I just want it to end once and for all. I don't know who will end first this or me. I can't pretend anymore. I can't hide the pain anymore. I just want to live like a normal person. When will it all be over? I can't hold on anymore. It's too much for me, it's just too much.  He is winning , he is getting whatever he wants,  is this what is going to happen? Everything in his favour? I need support , someone to rely upon.

I look around to see him talking to his friends and exchanging something. I was busy in observing them when..

I hear a gun shot.

I look up to find Jonah holding Roman at gun point.

JAHN'S POV:

I hear a gunshot. I see Jonah holding Roman. Ana standing in front, shaking. I see Jonah yelling at Ana to "run". She looks at Jonah and then at Roman.

I get out of my car. I scream for Ana.
"Ana here! Come fast!" I tell her.

She signals me to wait. She opens her car door and gets into the driver seat and accelerates the car towards me.

I see Jonah. I see him looking at Ana's car. He shot the car. The car blasted. The parts flying and fire everywhere. I see Ana's hand falling from the car's window, the bracelet Rush and I gave her on her birthday still on her hand.

This can't happen. I run to her.

"Wake up! Look at me! You can't leave us! Wake up Ana!" I scream.

We get her out of the car. Her body bloodied and bruised. Her eyes closed and a peaceful expression on her face. Her heartbeat. Her heartbeat, there's none.

I fall back. Not believing. I tuck up my legs and hide my face in it. I screamed, screamed until my throat hurt, until I lost my voice. I just sat there alone in the windy night under the stars. I hear faint ambulance sirens. I sat still, time passing by, I feel nothing. Absolutely nothing.

I feel a hand on my shoulder. It was Jonah.
"Jah-"

I slapped him.

"HOW DARE YOU!? YOU KILLED HER! WHY!?" I scream, crying hysterically.

"I lost, lost her. All because of you!" I scream.
"List-" He says.

"Go away. Just go away. Go away before I end up killing you with my bare hands." I look at him with my blood red eyes.

I saw Roman standing. His face expressionless. Not even a hint of guilt.

I stand up just to fall down. I see some hospital staffs coming to get me with them. I went inside the ambulance with them. The clouds cried tonight. It started raining heavily. It thundered as if it's the end of the world.

We reached the hospital.

"Is there someone you want to call, Ms.?" The nurse asked me.
"I'll." I tell her, I had to energy to speak.

I call Mary. Rush won't be able to stand it.

"Ana is no more." I tell her without letting her speak.

I hear someone fall down. Then I hear..
"Rush? What happened?" It was Rush on the phone, not Mary.

"Hello?" Mary says.

"Mary, take care of her. Ana had a car accident. She didn't survive." I clear my throat, getting back to my neutral tone.

No matter what happens, I need to stay strong for Rush.

FLASHBACK ENDED

RUSH'S POV:

I fall down on my knees. I cried. I cried more than I cried on the day I heard the news. I never thought the last thing I said to her would be a taunt. I felt miserable. I felt I'm not sober. My head started floating.

"Rush. Listen to me. Breathe." Jahn instructs.

I didn't. I don't want to.

I closed my eyes and stood up.

"Just give me one reason. Why did you do it?" I whispered to Jonah.
"WHY THE HECK YOU DID THAT!?" I cried.

"He didn't." I hear an unknown voice say.

A/N:

Everything gets better.