Mafia ~ Bang Chan [COMPLETED]

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Reader's POV:

(Warning: Emotion overload ahead, please keep a box of tissues with you in case. I'm so bad at writing emo scenes so please don't pay heed to the trash content that will be display)

Y/n stepped out of the car. She looked over and saw the sunset. She was parked on a safe place on the mountain. She saw the other cars drive past her from the top of the mountain. Sitting on her car she looked out over the out skirts of Busan.

She thought, deeply, to the point she got a headache. Why was she here? How did she get here? Was it really destiny that had her join the Mafia? If she hadn't walked out to get food that night when she first met Chan, would she ever be here?

She had many questions. Did she forgive them? Did she come over the fact that her allies were once friends that tried to kill her? What would happen after they found the Will? Would she ever go back to the way she was? Forgiveness was a hard thing for Y/n to feel.

But she did anyway. How long was she supposed to be angry and upset at the other gangs? Tears dropped out of her eyes, she began to sob. Hiding her face in her hands, she cried. Cried out of frustration. 

"Why? Why mom? Why dad? Why is this so damn difficult? Why did I have to be the one who was in this position?! In this situation? Why do I have such a difficult time deciding things? Why do I have such a hard time forgiving my own brother? My childhood friends? My second family?!" she yelled. 

"I don't know. I really don't know. I'm sorry. For whatever I've done to deserve this!" she said. "Do you know how hard it is for me to look at Mark, Ryujin, Sana, The rest of SKZ, Itzy, Twice, Got7 and BTS and resist the urge of just crushing them into a hug?" she cried. "I would fucking love to! But- But I can't! I literally can not for the life of me!" she said.

"Please...please tell me what to do. Please mom and dad. It's only you" she cried, looking towards the sky. She never believe all this shit as she only saw them in movies but it bought her comfort. 

Do it. Forgive them, my child. It will cause you less pain.

I guess what they say is true. The people you loved always stay in your heart, wherever they are, as memories. But Y/n felt the urge to forgive over her. As if someone gave her the power to do so. She sat crying more and more.

Almost like she was crying the pain away, like people drink when they're hurt. But Ten would beat her ass if she even touched Soju. She was beyond grateful to have met the people who her father spent her time with right up until he was killed. Jaehyun's words were stuck in her head. 

Your father always spoke of you.

Her dad and mom came into her mind. Oh how happy they would be to see their children be happy together. But right now, they would be restless seeing how they aren't even on the best of terms. "The pain in unbearable, they are right in front of me. Looking at them, just...just makes me so...so upset" she said.

"So anxious. They way they had shackled me, and shot me. Their trust in me faltered faster then anything on the planet" she sobbed, her cries were quieter now. Her head felt light headed from all the crying. She couldn't take the stress anymore, so she decided on the thing that made the most sense.

I'll forgive. I choose to forgive.

Was it too early? Was it a rash decision because she was crying her eyes out? She didn't know. But, what she did know was if she forgives, it would at least take 80% of the pain away. She stood up and heard her phone ring from inside the car. 

Coughing a few times and talking to herself to see whether she sounded like she cried, she answered. 

On the phone

She heard Ten, Johnny, Jisung arguing before Jisung took the phone and started speaking.

Jisung 
NOOOOOOOOOONNNNNNNNNNNAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!! WHERE ARE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU??!!!

Y/n winced at him screaming.

Y/n
I'm driving home now, I'll see you all in around 1 hour. 

Johnny
Look, come back now. Jisoo is about to faint because she thinks you got kidnapped and your brother is also worried as well as everyone else-

Y/n heard cursing come from the other side of the phone

Ten 
You ass- Oh hi Y/nie, if you don't come home right now I'm sending everyone after you and when we find you, your grounded and the only person that you can talk to is Jisung because he will also be grounded for screaming so loudly into the phone and almost bursting my ear drums.

She chuckled in her voice that sounded horrible due to her crying.

Ten 
Y/n, were you crying? 

She heard everyone go silent on the other side and all she heard was Chan and Mark nagging Ten to tell them what happened.

Y/n
Uh- N-no. I'm coming home now so yeah. See you soon

End of phone call

Oh God, now she's gonna be overloaded with questions once she gets back. Wonderful. Getting into her car, she knew exactly what to do. Whether she would regret this in the future or not was not decided but she knew the moment would count more than anything.

~

"You!" Joshua yelled and pointed as she pulled up on the drive way. Everyone was gathered at the gates when they were told by the guards that Y/n was home. "How dare you freaking do that to us! Don't you know how worried we were?!" Jun yelled. 

"Guys, I'm fine" Y/n laughed. "TUAN Y/N! SHOW YOUR SELF TO ME RIGHT NOW!!" She heard Ten's voice from behind everyone. He marched right up to her and pulled her into a hug. "You silly fool, how dare you run from us?" he said angrily, but relived she was okay.

"Sorry sorry, I just needed some time alone" she said. "We're glad your okay" she heard Taehyung say from behind them. She had a blank face before pouting. "Really? Your happy not EXTREMELY glad that your queen, the one and only Y/n, is still alive??" she said jokingly. (this is so lame i am so sorry)

They all looked at her before she cracked up laughing; everyone did the same. Y/n joking around with Skz, Itzy, Twice, Bts and Got7? That's the first in a while. "Where's Jisungie?" Y/n asked. "...locked inside his room because Ten wasn't joking about the grounding" Yugyeom said. "Noona! I hope your okay!" she heard. 

Looking up, she saw Jisung almost hanging off the edge of his balcony while waving at her. "I'm fine! And stop hanging off the edge, you might fall!" she yelled. They all went inside and Y/n went inside her room to change.

~

She heard a knock on the door. "Uhm-Come in" she said. Chan walked inside. Y/n felt a sense of comfort rush over her. I mean, he was technically her boyfriend even though they weren't dating for a few years. (that makes no sense O well). "Chris?-" She asked but he walked over to her and gently pulled her towards him, arms snaking around her waist as she crashed against his chest.

(WARNING! NEXT PART MAY OR MAY NOT BE A LITTLE STEAMY IN THE BEGINNING SO ANYONE WHO IS HERE FOR CHAN AND Y/N YOUR GETTING LUCKY)