A Speck Of Dust

I'm not weak I'm just broken

Giving in to my desires
Getting lead on by my cravings
Weak you say?
Yeah, maybe that's how it looks
But not weak, inside I am just broken
Heart and soul shattered over and over again with no one but myself to pick them up
I hoped, and hoped and hoped
Time after time
Bit by bit
I crumbled
I sank
I lost hope
I craved, I craved, I craved
Every night I clutched at my heart, engulfed in my own darkness
Stumbling between self hurt and self hate
Why is it that no one ever stays
No one loves me enough
I also want to recieve
Be loved
Be taken care of
Be held cautiously, sweetly, caringly
I also want to see eyes sparkling because of me
Selfish you say?
Maybe, but is asking to be loved as much as I love really selfish?
Asking to be cared for as much as I care for
To have someone choose me as their soulmate
Treat me like a queen and I'll treat you like a king
Well I just want to be treated like yours
Stop leaving me
Stop failing me
Stop making me hope
Cause oh those false hopes
They crush you, tear your heart apart, spit on it, step on it and then mokingly laugh at you
" you thought " they whisper while tucking you
" you were stupid " they say while mocking you
" you're weak " they spit while judging you
But no, I'm not weak, I'm just broken