Unrequited Love ( Boy X Boy )

Day-3

I woke up early in the morning to his call asking me to let him in to the building. I was still half asleep when I opened the door for him. He started complaining as soon as he entered my tiny 1bhk flat, he said my house was too dark and depressing. He pulled the curtains open and  opened up the windows. When the morning sun hit my face, it felt like there was still warmth left in the world, slowly brining the colours back in to my life, but I knew this was not permanent. I wanted to hold on to this dream a little longer, waking up everyday to see his smiling face, sun lit apartment and our little world together. 

He ordered food in swiggy and asked me to get ready for our shopping trip, I complied. He went to my closet and picked some t-shirt and a jeans for me to wear. He kept complaining that all I wear is black and that's why  my soul is turning old. I listened to him nagging as I picked my dress and walked in to the bathroom to wash up. When I returned,  the food he ordered was already brought in and he was sitting on the floor opening up the small plastic containers which had food. I don't have a dining table, so we sat at the floor and ate our food. We left immediately after we finished eating, afraid that we will get caught up office hour traffic. He asked me if I wanted to go to hospital and apply leave, I told him it was ok and that I have applied for 5 days of leave to attend his wedding. We was beaming when he heard it and gave me a tight hug.

We took my car, and as soon as we left the building premises he started talking about the life in abroad, you know how people always complains about our roads once they are back from US.I was not annoyed, but listened to him patiently while he animatedly described the roads and traffic system and what not. This is our normal thing, him bragging about stuffs he has done and me knowing full well it's BS and still indulging him. 

We reached the shopping center and after parking the car went to select reception Sherwani for him. He asked me to pick the ones I liked while he sat there playing with his mobile. I know the drill, i have done this many times in past, most of the dress that he wears are picked by me. I asked him if there is a colour theme and he said he didn't know , so I asked him to call up his fiancé and ask her. He picked the phone and walked to a side , talking to her. I saw the smile he had on his face, and it gave me a strange feeling. I ignored and picked some Sherwanis and Kurthas it doesn't matter what colour, it will all look good on him. 

He came back after 5 minutes and told me the colour theme was pink, I was shocked at first. He absolutely hated pink, so I asked him if its ok for him to wear pink and he said it's fine. I realized that he has already started adjusting to his new life, and felt the distance between us grew more and more. He randomly picked one of the pink ones I had selected earlier and tried it out. He looked good, even in pink. While we were about to leave, he asked me if I have already got a dress for the reception, I said I did. He didn't believe me and asked me to pick some for myself from the same shop, I told him no need , that I already have a kurtha planned for his reception. He nodded and went to pay for the dress  while I quietly waiting for him to come back. He will never know  that I don't have a dress picked for his reception, and nor will I need one. I felt even more sad and my head stared aching badly. 

We walked around the shopping mall for half day and picked up so many cloths and other items. We ate snacks at the counter and he even bought me an ice-cream. It's been a long while since I came to a shopping mall, I was really happy after eating my chocolate ice-cream and the head ache seems to have disappeared. I dropped him at his house by noon and ate lunch at his house. His father called me to office room and handed me the list of items to be taken care of, I crossed out the things that are already done and walked him through the arrangements one more time. He was very relieved and thanked me for taking care of everything. He said since I was so reliable and capable, they didn't have to worry about anything about the wedding. I gently accepted the praise and told him this is something I should do for him. This is all I can do for him.

I left by evening and went back to my apartment. My head was aching badly and I was nauseous. I threw up everything I ate that day and popped my sleeping pill and went to sleep.