If I just left maby I would forget about you your touch and the way your lips brushed against mine your smile and how you would look at me how are lives collided when we met maby you would have never even been real maby all you where was a thought i...
I find it funny how in fairytales there is always a happy ending but in life its like what even is a happy ending . "Hold on" I say that to myself at least a thousand times a day .
With him though I was finally happy free . His touch and smile everything about him was my comfort but as they load me up on the bed and prepare his touch makes me have more fear .
He expect a perfect son and a girlfriend to make it out ok but what if I can't give him that . I just wanted to give him everything .
I've heard about his past Tara Opie Gemma Clay all of it . I just want to make sure I aint the cause for anymore of his pain .
I looked at Jax teary eyes the white room blinding me a little . He had a mask on and pulled it down a tad . "Baby whats wrong" those words coming out of his mouth where everything but knowing I could take away his happiness it took away that moment .
"Promose me that you wont be amd if I die or our son dies Jaxon please" . He looked stunned for a second he quickly regained himself .
"I will always love you and whatever happens here will nit change anyway I felt about you" . We kissed eachother before the doctor came in .
He held my hand there was a thing that kept me from looking at my stomach . I closed my eyes as the doctors began pulling in .
"Alright are you ready to get this stubborn son of yours out" . I opened my eyes and smiled as they went to my stomach .
"Tell us anything if you need to this will kill you but stay as still as possible" . I took a deep breathe and nodded and so they took out the scalpel and got the beds ready .
During the two months we where able to set up a room and buy way to many boy clothes and diapers I just hope he will be able to wear them . Able talks about his unborn brother and how excited he is .
Thomas he doesn't even realize what's to come . I was pulled out of my thoughts by a sharp pain . This was happening my son was healthy would he come out the same .
I winced "are you ok" I looked to Jax who was giving me sad eyes . "Babe I love you but NO IM NOT OK I HAVE NO PAIN medi" ......
Shit I bit my bottom mlip in pain "ahh fuck on a stick" . I held Jaxons hand squeezing it for life .
"Breathe in and out ok" I looked at the doctor and my heart rate on the monitor . It was high i had to calm down . In and out i said softly soon I saw bleeding from bitting my lip so hard . Jax didn't speak mainly because he was into much pain to . I made his hand bleed .
I smiled at teh fact my job jad been complete i made Jax feel. Alityle of pain whe i felt most of it but when I heard the cry of a baby well . In that moment my world stopped everything went blank . I looked at the doctors pulling out my perfect son who was crying like his life depended on it .
I had tears in my eyes but when I heard another cry not from the first baby the doctor was cleaning up but the one the doctor was pulling out .
I was not expecting two how was this even possible . As if the doctors where reading my thoughts Doctor Sanders came to me handing me both of my small fragile sons .
"We must not have caught it on the ultrasound both of them are very healthy um him right here he weighs about five pounds and him he ways about five and a half" .
My babies where so perfect and I knew what to name them . Jax came amd picked one up kissing him as the doctors put him on a bed and doing the same with the others . They cleaned me down and Jax got ready .
Finally Jax came back in so we could discuss our sons names . "You did amazing darling and both babies our to perfect" .
Jax gave me a very passionate and intense kiss and I almost forgot what I was going to tell him . "Cameron Alexander Teller and Colton Lowman Teller . Now I know you may not like them considering".....
I was cut off by Jaxon kissing me he pulled away and smiled . "Its perfect Sades Cameron and Colton and im sure Tig and Happy will have a kick with the middle names" . Three words eight letters thats all I needed to say .
"I love you so damn much" ok so maby not three words and eight letters but I just needed him to know I loved him beyond the stars past the sky and out of the universe .
Cameron and Colton both came back in and they where beyond perfect . Probably cuz they looked so much like there dad .
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Cameron left Colton right
I kissed both of them about a million times . Before kissing Jax intently "I love you so much Jaxon" . He smiled as we kissed again . "I love you so much more" .
We laid down in bed with our sons and looked at eachother . "There isn't any view i would have that is better than you no starrs or sky just you that is my best view" . I putty hand on my chest . "I know I'm sexy you leave me flustered" .
I smiled and Jax smirked now I loved Jaxon more than myself that's probably why I would die for him but that damn smirk . Don't get me wrong that smirk made me want to do things to him terrible sexy things but it also meant he was up to no good .
Luckily the doctor knocked and came in after I okays it . "Alright we will take the twins and you can see them twommoro sleep well Mrs and Mr Teller .
This doctor was doffrebt thats probably why he called me Mrs.Teller but honestly I didn't mind it at all .
Me and Jax kissed our babies and said our good byes as the doctors took them . Jax made the same smirk once they where gone .
"What are we going to do right now" . I asked i was wide awake. "Eachother" Jax smiled proudly" . I lightly pushed him but he smirked and I smiled . Shit this was going to end terrible he leaned in my ear .
"Right now I want to lay you across this bed and take off all of your clothes . I want to listen as you moan my name and everyone to listen praying and wishing they where us" .
He went to the outline of my parties and began teasing me . "As tempting as this sounds and is we are in a hospital" .
He got ontop of me amd began kissing my neck . My breathe got quicker . "Jax I just had surgery" he understood so he got off and instead went to my panties once again .
He slipped two fingers inside of me causing me to lightly moan in suprise . Alright thats it I had to stop it but he got quicker and began massaging my clit .
So I let him when he was done he fell asleep and I walked to the bathroom to get cleaned up . I sighed walking on the cold floor .
I felt a sharp pain in my stomach amd suddenly I was in the ground . It happened all to fast because I never seen Jax I didn't get to even scream my head hit the ground and my eyelids closed . As I let in the familiar darkness all to soon .
Hey bitches I bet im leaving you awe stuck nah im kidding I love you be happy xoxo kenzie 😘❤
