My story

That day

So there I was sitting under those trees were we usted to hang out waiting for him to come. But then I got another message from him telling me that he was going to take another 30min to come, I was already waiting 15min I was getting really anoyed because i had to wait 30min more while I was smoking my 4th cigarret in 15min I was talking to my bestfriend. Because i was really stressed out ofcourse she said I didn't need to stress but that was easier said than done. At a certain moment I didn't think he would come to be honest, but I didn't care so I decided to stay and see if he would come. Every minute I became more stressed I was already waiting 35min and every minute It became worse. But finally he came, and as I thought I fell in love again, we were laughing a lot, but very time I looked at him I knew that I was never going to be able to love someone more than I loved him. Every time I looked into his eyes I wanted to kiss him so badly but I knew that I couldn't because I needed to forget him again, I also knew that It was going to be dificult but I didn't care, when we sat under those trees I just looked into the woods and he didn't stop asking me what was wrong but I didn't have the balls to tell him I misses him and that I loved him so I just told him the lie that everyone tells I said that nothing was wrong, when he left he grave me a kiss on my cheek and walked away I didn't say anything I just sat there and after 3min when he was gone I started to cry I was crying about 20min after that I was so ashamed of myself I just sat there under the trees thinking about everyone that Saw me cry I was drowning in the feeling of embaressment but I just couldn't help It.