My story

The beginning

So lets start at the beginning. School just ended I had met new fantastic people Who became my best Friends one of them told me that I needed to meet a friend of hers because i was very lonly so I wanted to tell her that I didnt know if I was ready to start something serious but I just told her oh yes that sounds great, I wish I has told her what I wanted but I didnt. So a couple days later we had our graduation that was the first time I Saw him I fell directly in love with him It was like love at the first sight. So after the graduation we went to a restuarant with everyone, I was pretty drunk so I went for a cigarette and then he came he sat Next to me and we started talking and laughing after a couple hours we kissed, It felt so good he doesn't know but he was my first kiss. After that day we hung out almost everyday talking about our lives while making out I was so Happy then we hung out almost everyday but than after a month and half he started acting weird so I decides to tell him I loved him with a lot words, but suddenly he told me he didnt felt the same way and that It was better if we just stayed Friends. My heard broke in to a thousend pieces I became depressed and completly numb. I started to hurt myself a lot I stopped going out I just sat in my bedroom I only left when I was hungry my parents became really worried about me but I didnt care. The only thing that could possibly make me feel better was going back to the way It was with him sitting under the trees talkin about our problema but I knew very well that that wouldn't happen.