Magic (Larry Stylinson)✔️

0.7

Harry:

I listen to the song that Niall said he really liked and I am going to be honest. It’s not something I normally listen to but I think it would be amazing to dance to, it’s so much feelings and feelings in music together with feelings in dance always works good for me.

“It’s really good actually” I say and Niall gives me a smile before he takes his headphone back. That is one of the things I like with mine and Niall’s friendship, we don’t really need to talk to each other all the time. We can be doing our own thing and just enjoy each other’s company. There isn’t many people who understands that you don’t always have to be doing things together to feel like you doing something.

Me and Niall usually do like this, we sit with music in our ears and just do our own thing just that we do it together. I don’t think you have had a real friend until you can feel like you don’t need to be doing something together all the time. I feel like I can be me and Niall can be Niall but we can still be us.

“Hey Lou” I look up at Niall and takes out one of my headphones, he does the same and we both are as we call it half social. That is the thing you have when you only have one of the headphones in and actually listen to what the other person is saying.

“Yeah”

“I think you should ask Louis to the dance, because I think he is too afraid of asking you himself, and you need to go so why not go with someone you know you want to go with.” Niall says and I look at him. How am I supposed to do that when I feel like I can’t talk to him without feeling like the room goes so much hotter.

“What if he say no?” I ask and don’t realize how small my voice comes out as, I probably shouldn’t feel this way but I like the way Louis smile at me when I meet him in the corridor. I like thinking he looks at me when he looks my way, he could be looking at anyone who is in my group of friends, but I like to imagine that he looks at me.

“He won’t” Niall says like he knows this for fact, how can he be so sure. There is always that possibility that he will say no and I don’t want to hear him say no to me. I know I will regret it if I don’t do it. But I also know that if I do it and he says no then I will also regret it.

I look down at my arms and I see the thin white almost faded lines, Niall follows my eyes to my arms and I can see the sad look in his eyes.

“He isn’t going to hurt you like that Harry.” He says and I look at him with tears in my eyes, how can he be so sure?

There have been so much hurt in my life and I don’t know if I am ready to put almost everything on the line again. Sure if he says no then I won’t have to worry about it. But then I will be sad that he said no. The thing is that I am not really worried about his answer… I’m more worried about what his answer will lead to and what it will do to me.

“He is a good guy Harry, you need to let yourself be happy for once” Niall says and I know he only wants what’s best for me.

“I’m happy. I don’t need a boy to be happy I have the dance.” I say but I know that isn’t what Niall means with the whole thing, I just don’t feel like talking about it.

I realize that there is no way I will get away with this conversation when Niall takes his headphone out of his ear and all his focus is on me.

“You know that’s not what I mean. I just want you to let yourself be happy Harry, you know that you like this dude so why won’t you take a chance for once? I don’t want you to ask yourself for the rest of your life what if.” Niall says and I know he is right but I am still scared. Scared that I will fall back in to old habits.

“You need to learn to let go of the past and focus on your future.” Niall says and I feel a tear fall from my eye… I know he is right but I don’t really want to listen to his words. I don’t want him to have right.

Niall is my best friend and he knows me better than no one else and I know that he knows every single flaw about me. He knows about how I had problems before and how they effected my life the bad way. He knows about those times I have been so close to ending it all.

Niall knows everything… Everything absolutely everything… He knows all from the way I use to be bullied like I was a punching bag to the part where I tried to take my own life for the second time. He was the one who kept my feet on the ground when I was so close to drifting away.

He has always been there for me and I know that if anyone is a real friend then it’s Niall. No one can take Niall’s place in my heart because he is my lifesaver and I am so happy to have him in my life.

“Come here now and cuddle with your best friend before we plan your and Louis wedding” I try not to laugh but a little laugh escape my lips… Tears are falling from my eyes but Niall still makes me laugh and that is something a real friendship is built on.

I am so lucky to have a best friend like Niall.