Poetry

Thoughts

My first word, step, laught 

Where you were there or not

Can't remember 

All my memories 

Of you smile 

If ever possible 

Are long gone 

Can't remember anymore 

One time you kiss my cheek 

I was so shock that I froze 

Barely remembering you ever

Hugging or touching  me without me trying first

You cry in my Elementary graduation 

I stood there schock

As you hug me, crying 

Don't know what to do anymore 

Then my middle graduation happen 

Only you show up

I thought you would hug me 

Like last time 

But all you did was hurry me up

Your expression was emptiness 

As I grad my certificate 

You hurry me to that car

Without a word 

You were back to your old ways

I still remember when you

Were anger when my brother 

Fall down, you blame me

When we were so far apart 

You didn't listen 

Not even when I cried 

Later on I try to understand 

He is the youngest and I'm the oldest 

I should have know 

It's was not the last time

Even when he did something wrong 

I was the one in the wrong

That same happen when

My second brother was born

He bite you, when you told him no

He scream at you

Didn't listen to you

Even spit you

One day I heard

You telling him

Not to follow my example 

You blame his attitude 

On me

When we barely spoke

That one time I spoke back 

You slap me, looking anger and disappointment 

As you left my room without looking back

You give them more 

I watch

As you play with them

Why

I am always be left

In the sidelines 

Tell me is just my imagination 

Just jealous in its finest 

That you love me 

Just like them

I...