Book 1 - O2

Chapter 12

Jeongyeon's POV-

Her question gave me chills through my spine. 

"Nayeon??" I ask her awestruck.

"Hm?" Her expression says that she is waiting for my answer.

"What did you just say?" I can feel my heart getting heavy.

"Joy... She is my little sister, Jeongyeon. Sorry, She was. Remember I had to grieve 3 people yesterday?" 

I nod, unable to say anything.

"It was my parents and Jo-." Nayeon's voice breaks. 

I bend down my head and a teardrop falls from my eyes.

"The world can be so small......"

She gazes at me. I can see her soul through her teary eyes. It's bleeding to death slowly and steadily.

"I know." She whispers.

We stay silent for a while. This realization is too much to take in for me. I hold my chest and whisper "Gwenchanah~ gwenchanah~"

"Joy was my best friend, Nayeon unnie." I say wiping my overflowing tears. 

"Are you Kyoongi?" She asks yearning for my answer. 

"How did you know that? Nobody has called me that except Joy and Jih." I ask her stunned.

"So you were the Kyoongi she mentioned to me..." she murmurs.

"Yeah, my other name is Kyungwan so...I am sorry I wasn't a good friend to her." I start sobbing. 

"What are you talking about? Joy used to talk about you nonstop. She used to keep on telling me that you were a blessing to her and how you took care of her and protected her. I want to thank you for that Jeongyeon." She gives a weak smile wiping her tears.

"She did?" I ask her a little shocked.

"Yes. She even told me that...that she wanted to apologize to you for leaving so soon and not being so strong. She wanted to say Sorry to you Jeongyeon, for leaving you alone so suddenly and that her death, had nothing to do with you. It wasn't your fault."

"Jebal please don't say that. It's my mistake she left. If I had smacked those kids even once, had I done that, had I, even once..." I break down crying loudly.

"Jeongyeon..."

"It's my mistake I wasn't there for her. I was having a  fucking vacation in Jeju, when my best friend was having a breakdown and needed someone badly. I can't handle it....." I start slapping myself.

"She loved you Jeongyeon. Don't do that. She wouldn't love that..." 

Hearing her say that, I stop immediately.

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Nayeon's POV-

"To be honest, I failed to become the proper loving big sister to her Jeongyeon." She looks at me.

"No, you are wrong."

"How do you know?" I want to know what she has to say because what I said is the truth.

"Joy had always been secretive. She never talked about her family but whenever she did, she used to talk about you and how important you were to her, but after she was gone I realized I never really asked her your name. Guess I didn't want to make her uncomfortable. I was totally happy with whatever she shared with me. Her comfort was the top priority."