rookie - chris "ct" tamburello

chapter twelve

Even though I showered last night, I took another one. I couldn't deal with the feeling of being dirty.

After I got out, I found CT in his bed so I layed with him.

"So, was that fun?" He smiled.

"Yeah, definitely, I'm gonna be dead tomorrow though, I smiled back, "thanks though, I definitely needed that."

"Yeah me too, me too."

I was about to go to sleep but I really wanted to tell CT something. I felt like I had to.

"Chris," he looked at me and nodded as if to say yes. "I know we haven't known each other for long, but I really like you, and I want to make us official."

He looked at me weirdly, "Katie look I like you a lot too but you're half asleep I'll ask you about this again when you wake back up," I just nodded and fell asleep.

I woke up around 9 and totally forgot about waking up earlier until I felt the pain. It wasn't like 'oh my god I'm gonna die pain', it was more like 'why would I do that' pain.

I looked over at CT and smiled. He was still sleeping. He looked so cute. I snuggled in closer to him.

I knew he probably wouldn't want to be asleep for longer so I lightly kissed his neck. His eyes opened slowly, "Good morning sleepy head," I smiled at him.

"Morning," he had this morning voice, and it was very attractive.

I kissed him and he kissed back. It was short and sweet.

"Do you remember our workout this morning?"

"Yeah that was torture," I laughed lightly.

"Yeah, do you remember what you said after?"

I was so confused, "What do you mean?"

"Well, right after we layed down, you said," he changed his voice as if to mimick mine, "I know we haven't know each other for long, but I really like you, and I want to make us official."

I blushed, did I say that. I mean that's definitely how I felt, but I wouldn't want to actually say that to him yet, "Wait, really?"

"Yeah, but I knew you were tired so I told you I would ask you about it once you woke up.

I bit my lip, I wasn't sure if I should tell him or not. "Yeah, I'm not sure yet if we should like make it official, its only been two days," his face grew sad and I felt terrible. I didn't want to kiss him though because I felt like it would make it seem like that's all I wanted him for, "I do really like you though CT."

"I really like you too Kate," I cringed a little. He always called me rookie or Katie. I assumed he was most likely mad at me.

Eventually, he just got up and left without really saying anything.

Then I kind of sat there and cried. I felt really bad. I should've just been honest with him and tell him I did want to take it to the next step.

~ct's point of view~

I was kind of upset. I really liked her, like a lot. I don't think I've ever felt this way for anyone.

I did what I always did when I was upset other than workout, I went and I smoked a ciggarette.

Something about cigarettes just really calmed me, I knew it wasn't good for me, I knew it would hurt my body and my lungs, but I tried my best not to smoke a lot.

Eventually, I heard someone walk behind me, and I was really hoping it wasn't Katie.

"Hey, is everything okay?" It was Cara. She was a really good friend of mine. She would always give me girl advice, and I would always give her boy advice, she was the one who told me to go after Katie after I talked about her on the plane.

"Yeah, I just don't really know what I'm doing wrong," I looked up at her.

She sat down next to me, "Alright, what's up."

I basically told her what was going on, "And, I feel like she likes me and I like her, but its just not time yet?" I pretty much questioned it, "I'm not sure."

"CT, if she isn't ready for a relationship, you can't force it. However, if you think that she's just leading you on you have to leave that relationship, it isn't healthy for you, if you think she likes you, you'll just have to talk to her" she half smiled, "I'm sure you'll make the best choice, if you want me to, I can go and talk to her about it to see how she feels about you."

That might actually help, "If you want to, you don't have to though," I really hoped she would.

~katie's pov~

I was just tanning out by the pool when Cara came up to me, "Hey," she smiled.

"Hi," I smiled back.

"So, tell me all about CT, you guys seem so cute together," that made me smile a lot. I was really mad at myself for messing things up between us.

"Well, I really like him, like a lot. And I want to be with him, but I dont want to affect his game. We actually kind of just got in a fight over that, he wants to be in a relationship, but I don't want to ruin anything for him," I kind of frowned.

"Oh, that's bad. Listen though, if that's how you feel, you need to tell him that, he probably thinks that you just don't like him."

"You're right," I half shouted, "thank you I need to go talk to him," I hugged her and went to find CT.

When I found him, he looked upset.

"um hey," it almost came out as a whisper.

"Hey," he didn't really look at me.

"I just wanted to say sorry, I just don't want to ruin your game or anything," it hurt me to say but it felt good getting it off my chest.

"Listen, Kate," that hurt, he said it harshly and it felt like I'd just been shot. "I know you don't like me, I just wish you would've told me sooner."

I was about to cry, the tears were burning in my eyes, "I like you Chris," I blurted, " I really like you Chris, even if it's only been three days, I really like you," that felt even better to get off my chest.

I saw a smile slowly grow on his lips, "I guess I kind of like you too rookie," I couldn't help but giggle, but it was kind of choked.

Then I think we shared the most magical moment ever, we hugged and he picked me up and kissed me. It felt like a breath of fresh air.

Authors Note: AHHHH! This was definitely my favorite chapter too write, I hope you guys enjoyed it as well!! Also I know like sounds weirder than love, but they aren't at the love stage yet lmao.