IN YOUR COURT (ON HOLD)

Chapter XX

"Baby" Devin whispered as he followed behind her after the game. Zendaya tried to leave the arena as soon as possible while Devin took a shower like he did after every game. However Devin knew she would try to make a run for it so he skipped a shower and opted for catching his baby before she could make a fast exit.

"I'm sorry!" He yelled grabbing her wrist.

"Devin you need to let go."

Removing his grip he lowered his head. "I don't mean to keep fucking up. You know I'd never purposely hurt you."

"That's great. Have a Goodnight Dev."

"Dev?? That means you don't hate me. It's Devin when you're mad."
"Devi, when you want your way "
"Dev when you're sad or sca ..you're scared of me?"

"You have no reason to fear me. I love you."

"So did he." She whispered while playing with her fingers "I just need some space."

"Space?" He stepped towards her and used a finger to tilt her head up " we don't do space. We talk through things. We put everything on the table and fix it. We aren't doing space. Ever. Space is a opportunity for separation and I'm not going for it. Next thing we know you'll be making up shit in your head and I'll never see you again."

"Devin did you do it on-"

"I did it on purpose ... the first couple times. The last time was an honest mistake. I realized how fucked up it was to try to get you pregnant without making sure that's what you wanted but I guess it was too late."

"You called me worthless today."

"I didn't"

"Yes you did. You told me I had nothing to offer you. You basically called me dead weight. Which now I find crazy. Why have kids with someone you think of as worthless?"

"You made me feel like I was crazy for even thinking that you did it on purpose."

"I didn't mean it. I was just upset. Upset that I did this to you and you weren't happy about it. How could you be? I didn't even give you a opportunity to make a choice and I just did it. I lashed out on you when in reality I was mad at myself for doing this to you. What do I have to do to fix this?"

"Just give me-"

"No. Besides that. You wanna sleep in separate rooms for awhile fine but we aren't leaving each other. I can't lose you."

She looked up at him and sighed . "Please come home." He held his hand out and she just stared down at it before lacing their fingers together.

"Devin I need you to know that I will not hesitate to leave the next time you treat me the way you did today. I will leave and you'd never see me again and I mean that with every single bone in my body. I'll be gone."

"I was an asshole today. That's not me though." He cupped her face and deeply kissed her. "I'm sorry" Zendaya pulled away and cleared a single tear from his face.

"Why you crying?" She mumbled.

"I don't ever want you to be scared of me. I don't ever want to tigger your fears."

"I think maybe we're moving way faster than either of us intended.  Maybe some space will-"

"No." He shook his head "Let's go home."

"Devin" she pulled her hand from his. "I -"

"Zendaya I love you and we're not doing this. Im sorry but I'm not letting you do this. Get in the car please." When she didn't move he opened the car door "please" he pleaded. "I hate when your not around. I can't function." He looked down.