|| Twenty ||🔞

XL- P A I N E D

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The sky was as beautiful as it would be on any other spring afternoon..

As the little girl I see playing around the lawn running in circles looks happy as ever..

She wore a bright yellow frock... covered in dandelion prints with her black hair tied into two Dutch plates..

That girl was me..

A smile forms on my face looking at my peacefull self...I remember this day..

"Be careful y/n.. don't fall into the pond." The voice of my mother makes my eyes snap to her...

There she was.. sitting under the tree with her legs folded with a book in her hand..

My eyes travel down to see my dad resting his head on her lap as he too read some article..

A notorious giggle leaves my younger self's lips as she hears my mother's voice.. only extending her arms more and imagining flying like a plane..

"Y/n! C'mon darling, the food's ready! Let's have it!" Calls my mom as I see my younger self stopping and now running towards them..

Suddenly in a blink of an eye it was me who was running towards them..As if I was in my younger self's body..

I couldn't control her but I was able to feel everything she felt, I felt, once again..

"Yayy!! Chicken!!"

I yell excitedly as I skip around the pond, careful not to trip but a cricket catches my attention as I scream and lose my balance..

"Daddy!!!" I scream, frightened, as I feel myself dropping into the pond..

I could see my parents running towards me.. as they reach the edge of the pond.. my dad ready to jump in but...

Suddenly he stops.. both of them do and just look blankly at me..

"D-daddy? M-mommy? Help me!!"

I shout, getting water in my mouth and nose.. scared as of why they weren't helping me

I try to balance myself above the water.. looking up at them.. when my eyes match my parent's sad one's..

"I'm sorry sweetie... But now you're gonna have to help yourself... Daddy and I can't do anything.."

Panic starts to rise within me as I feel myself sinking and hearing those words only made it worse..

They echoed in my ears.. as if the walls of the pond had started talking..

"We can't help you now.."

"You're one your own now.."

"You're alone now...."

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Gasping I snap my eyes open.. the first thing coming in my sight is the moving wings of the ceiling fan..

My breathing heavy as I bring my hand on my sweaty forehead.. swiping away the sweat beads that had formed..

After few minutes of calming my breath I manage to sit up...