დ .𝔾𝕚𝕣𝕝𝕗𝕣𝕚𝕖𝕟𝕕 𝟙𝟘𝟙 დ (Haruka X Reader Oneshots)

Haruka x anxious reader

Hello lovelies! I'm here to give a small trigger warning!! This chapter contains some things that may be unsettling to some audiences. Also please do not get offended by any of these details, i based them off my own experience with panic attacks and i know everyones are different. Have a great day.

-Author

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(Y/n) sat on her bed, directly in the middle simply trying to catch her breath. She sat with her knees to her chest and her hands covering her ears, her eyes shut as tightly as possible. This was not uncommon for the girl for panic attacks were often, however they mostly only resulted in hyperventilation and a few quick heart beat. The corner of her eyes where pricked with tears and the line shape stains dried. 

Her parents were not awake so she didn't want to wake them because they were busy people in the mornings, and though they loved her she didn't want them to be tired in the morning.

(Y/n) glanced at the clock.

'12:24 A.M'

'Maybe she is still awake'

(Y/n) reached for the her phone, scrolled through her contacts until she found it.

Haru<3

Hey Haru, are you still awake?

Just barely my love, why?

Because, I wanted to come over, but if you are tired I will not bother you any further

No, its ok you can come  if you want, but why so late?

I'll explain when I get there, ok Haru?

Of course kitten.

(Y/n) had already felt somewhat better just by talking with her girlfriend. She slid her way down the bed and cleared her eyes to drive. She made good sure that no one hear her as she closed the front door, keys in hand.

She knew that driving would only make everything worse but in the end it would be worth it...right?

She got in her car and drove away onto the highway looking for her exit, cars surrounded her in a formation so she could not she beside, behind, or in front of her. Her eyes travelled around and she felt so anxious the she wanted to throw up. She just wanted to be there and be held, loved.

Her eyes were clouded as she saw her exit, she got off and made it Harukas house, before getting out of the car. She felt so ill that she was shaking. She went to the door and knocked, her hands trembled.

Haruka opened the door lazily as if she had fallen asleep while waiting, but once she saw (Y/n)s tear stained trembling face and body and instantly took hold of her. Her face softened and she led (y/n) to the couch.

"Hey, is everything ok? What happened?"

"I got fired... I can't help my parents anymore. I was not good enough to stay, if something bad happens to my family it will be all my fault."

"Darling, you are just 17, everything will be ok, I'm sure they understand."

(Y/n)s breathing increased by a lot, and Haruka knew this would only lead to another panic attack.

She held (Y/n)s head and ran her hand through her hair until (Y/n) finally crawled into her lap and allowed Haruka to sooth her. 

It was now 1:58 A.M.

(Y/n) did not sleep the night before due to the same stress and worry, she did not tell her girlfriend of her loss of a job until now, for she didn't want Haruka to worry for her.

(Y/n)s eyes began to close, her vision getting blurry, everything around her seemed to be fuzzy and warm, but she didn't want it to end, for she knew once she woke she would be greeted with the thought of reality. The warmness of her girlfriends arms, her heart beating soundly, it all made her fell so loved. The way Harukas hands were buried in her hair and how she played with the end strands, 'please' she thought,'don't let go,'.

The heaviness of her eyes began to ache, making her succumb to the tiring feeling of stress, allowing herself to slip into the sleep she so ached for. 

Finally, she felt safe.