Chapter 16.

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I woke up at 7:00.I wanted to sleep more, but unfortunately i had so much to do today.It was strange that Gunhi hadn't still woke up and my room was a big mess as a result!I decided to take a shower first, therefore i took off my clothes and opened the tap to take a hot one!When i got out, She still wasn't there and it made me a little worried!I locked on my phone to check the clock, It was 7:45!

Suddenly my phone buzzed!I locked it on again, A message from James:

*The class will start at 9:00, but a good breakfast with your friend won't hurt in a sunny day like today!See you infront of our permanent coffee shop at 8:00*

I didn't know whether i had to go or not!What if Harry is waiting for me infront of the university?!A smile appeared on my face when i remembered the feeling of his warm skin on me!No words can explain how i felt yesterday near him.I shook my head and gathered my books!He is so busy to come and see me everyday!But i have to talk to him about everything!

*I'll be there.*

I sent him back with a happy emoticon!

I curled my hair and wore a long black dress with short sleeves from my sholder to my elbow!I wanted to wear that heart shaped necklace but i decided to wear my pearl earrings instead!I put on my white, high heels and take my white purse with my books for university!I dialled Gunhi's number but she didn't pick up the phone, so i went out to find her!Suddenly i heard a voice from the hall!

"But how?!Tell me who this cretinous girl is?!"

It was Kendall shouting in her room!OH MY GOD!Paparazzi have published the news.I rushed down to check the newspapers and i saw a big picture of Harry and I with a title of :

*Harry Styles new date*

Thanks god that it was a picture which i was hidding my face with my hands and you could just see Harry and my clothes in it, otherwise i couldn't see todays sunrise!

I wanted to go up and talk to Kendall and calm her down, but i felt so guilty to do it!What i did yestersay was so dangerous and foolish!

I took my car keys and left home without giving myself a chance to talk to my sister.It was the first time which i drove to the university by my own car and i wish i hadn't because that day i couldn't concentrate at all.

"I never forgive myself.This is all my fault!" I shouted at myself and burst into tears!Before the concert it was me who wanted her to be real sisters for eachother, to love eachother and have fun and look what has happened now!Why should two sisters fell in love with the same person?I shouldn't see him anymore!I have to forget about him totally, otherwise i'm going to make everything worse and hurt people around me.If i don't stop myself i'm going to hurt Harry too.God knows what slyly Kendall and her wizard is!I must talk to her and tell her all about the things which have happened this month, but i really don't have the courage to do it!

When i arrived, i parked my car beside the sidewalk and put a little make up to hide my red eyes.It always takes me about 5 minutes to walk to the coffee shop and there is no need to drive there, but i had to check something at the university first, suddenly I saw Harry seating on a bench infront of the university with two starbucks in his hands.

I rolled my eyes and turned back but he stood up and followed me, immediately he grabbed my arms and made me face him.I took my hand back and stepped back.

"What the hell are you doing here?!" I yelled at him.

"Umm...I..I came here to see you and I thought maby you had time to drink a coffee with me."

"No i don't have time for you and your stupid thoughts." I lost my temper and threw both starbucks on the floor. I didn't have other choices except behaving in a rude way with him.I had to do something that he hate me,that he forget about me.I know i'm just going to bring him grief and misery if we be together and he deserves more than that.He can have a happy life with Kendall or other awesome girls who are ready to do anything to be with him just for a minute, and i have to make him see the truth that we can not be 'TOGETHER'.

"This is not you Tatiana.I know that..."

"I have a boyfriend Harry." I interrupted him.

"What the...!!I could see the pieces of his broken heart at his glorious eyes.

"Harry i have a boyfriend and what happened yesterday was just a mistake. You are a famous person and i'm a normal girl and we are not good for eachother." I lowered my voice so nobody around us could hear i was lying.Although nobody was there except us.

"That's bullshit Tatiana.It's not important for me who you are.If this is the main problem that we can't be together i can assure you that i don't give a shit to these stupid,nonesense things."

"But i do." I lied.I lied because when i'm with him i don't give a shot to anything either!

"Did you see our picture on the cover of today's magazine?!Harry i can't stand this situation.I have someone who loves me and i love him too,and you have loads who love you out there."

"No!...This isn't you Tatiana.This isn't the same person i kissed yesterday.You aren't the same person i fell in love the first time i saw her."

"Yesterday was a big mistake Harry.I blame myself for everything we did yesterday,everything i told you and you told me was just a goof and i promise to never let it happen again.Because we are never seeing eachother again."

I controled myself not to cry infront of him, but my eyes filled with tears and i turned away to wipe them.I could percieve his feelings at that moment.It seemed like nobody could attach those pieces of his broken heart together.

"Please don't come here again." I walked away from him. This was the last goodbye.

"Tatiana." He called me and i turned back.I know i shouldnt, but i didn't want to miss my last chance of looking at him!

"Your sister has invited me to a party at your house tomorrow night."

"What?!" I became horrified with what he said.Although this wasn't the first time that they hold a party without telling me, because i have never attended even one of them, but how dare she has invitet Harry?! She saw that picture on the magazine today and still she thinks she has a chance for being with him.This is terrible.

"I came here to say it to you and i don't know why we lead here.To this..To this foolish arguement."

"I..I'm not coming."

"What?!But you are her sister?!" No!We are not sisters and we will never be one.How can she trust me when i betrayed her and how can i concider her as my sister when she doesn't share her secrets with me??

"I'm not coming Harry.I have to study for my exams at my friend's house!Hope you have a great night with...with Kendall!"

He didn't have anything to respond!

"Bye Harry."

You don't even know that i'm not invited and i don't know how can i tell you all of these about my family,my sister,my feelings toward you!Harry i'm not that rich,happy person that you think.I wish i had the courage to tell all of these infront of him.

I looked at his eyes for the last time and walked away from him.I took fast steps so he couldn't call me back to tell me another awesome news from my great mother and sister!!

Suddenly my phone rang!

"Oh shit!I totally forgot about him."

It was James, so i picked up to answer him.

"What the hell are you doing Tatiana?!Do you know what time is it?!"He was shouting and i could feel how irritated he was.

"I...I'm sorry." on the spur of moment i couldn't control myself and burst into tears.

"Hey..Tatiana are you crying?!What the hell has happened?!Are you okay?!"

"No." I shaked my head!

"Where are you now?!"

"The yard behind the university."

"I'll be there in two minutes." He hung down without saying a goodbye.

It was 8:45!My first class was going to start in 15 minutes and i didn't even want to go.I didn't know whether i did the right thing or not.Maby we could be friends.JUST FRIENDS.But i damaged all our passion for eachother.One side of me thinks that everything is over now but the other side doesn't....

Hey guys!Sorry for updating late!I'm so busy with the exams at school, but i promise to update everyday at summer! Keep reading!LYALL...-Niusha (:

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