Letters Of Love || todoroki X reader

chapter 14

                          
(First I'd like to clarify that if my storys all out of order with like what goes on at school please don't come at me I mainly just wanna focus on y/n and todorokis friendship so I'll probably forget certain info I've already wrote...sorry)

Freezing

Since your mother died it's been a week and todoroki had stayed over those night to support you, every night you were awoken due to horrific nightmares picturing over and over the sight of your once lifely mother lying still on the floor pale and cold.
Todoroki had mentioned therapy quite a few times to help you get over the nightmares, though honeslty to you he was sick of having to shake you awake everynight to stop you screaming.
'its alright. It's not real.' thats what he said but to you it was real..it was like she was right there.

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When your grandmother came she let todoroki go, thanked him for taking care of you. She could see the bags under his eyes from his lack of sleep...because of you. He left unhesitatingly of course yet giving you a warm hug and a 'call me later okay?'
Gosh his mood swings, you gotta love him for it though.

"So sweetie Tell me, what's been going on? That handsome young man told me you having slept since she..passed."
You sighed and layed your head back on a sofa cushion as she Patted your knee.
"I don't know what to do gran, my mind keeps replaying the events of that night but like it's worse, so much worse..."
You rub your eyes and nibble on one of the chocolate cookies she has brought.
"And todoroki...I feel like I'm pushing him away...everynight I'd wake up screaming and crying trying to escape the nightmare and he comes and helps me but I just push him away..."
She sighs and looks at you with saddness and sympathy, your friends would call you and ask you how you were which made you angry, in general anger isn't an emotion you tend to portray.
"Grief does terrible things to people my darling, terrible things. But you have to fight through it to stay close to those you love"

You explained the nightmares to her, and how they keep getting worse and she too suggested therapy. But to you it's like nobody in the world could understand how you felt and nobody could tell you how to feel better. There was only one person who would know how you feel but...you haven't talked In years.
"What about my dad? He lost him mum."
Your grandmother was quite shocked to hear you mention him, sure you'd shut him out but he's still family. And right now your only parent.
"Well yes he did but, are you saying you want to see him after he left all those years ago?"
You sit up suprised that she seemed to frown upon the idea of you talking to your dad
"Gran he did nothing wrong, when he lost him mum he wanted space to greave. And now I understand him okay! I know he never came back but that's his business and I forgive him now I'm going out!"
And with that you stand up and walk out the house leaving your grandmother sat eyes wide and mouth slightly open staring at a now slammed door.
........
As soon as you left you mumbled words to youself like, 'he did nothing wrong' and 'nobody understands how I feel'
That sort of self sympathy.
You walked endlessly watching kids play happily with their perants but in a park sat silently on a bench was....kirishima?

You jogged over to the bench your hands nestled comfortably in your pockets and he smiled at the sight of you.
"Yo y/n! How are you!"
You sat down next to him and he turned himself around slightly to face you.
"Well, you know as good as you can be I guess how are you Reddy?"
He laughed and punched you playfully.
"Good, chilly though isn't it?"
As he said that a chill of the cold November wind tickled your neck making you shiver.
"Yeah it is, but I kind of like the cold."
He shrugged his shoulders in an 'okay then' manner then explain that he had to leave. Shame, looks like your alone.
During your alone time you deside to catch up on some messages you've been choosing to ignore, most from todoroki even though he only left about an hour ago, and them loads from the girls.

Todoroki: can you meet up later outside yours. Need to tell you somthing, if you go out  like you probably will wear a coat it's cold.

Good old todoroki, very protective.

Y/n: will do! Miss u already 😥 I got a bit angry at my gran so I stromed out so I'm just at the park on my own. What time should i meet you?

Todoroki: I don't mind Mabey 8.

Y/n: 👍 sure thing I'll see you then xxxx

Read. 15:27pm

Behind the other phone was todoroki, inside he was smiling, alll week you'd ignored him really exept from a random chat every know again. But he felt you were getting better, at least you'd gone out.

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When the chillls became uncomfortable and the sky began to grow dull and all the happy children had returned to there warm cozy homes to eat their dinner you still sat on your bench. Contemplating when to move.
A call buzed in your pockets snapping you from your thoughts. Todoroki.

"Hi?"
"Y/n you texted me at half past three to tell me you were at the park and I walked pasted just now and your still there at...7 o'clock? Why?"

It only hit you how long you had indeed Been sat their for, gazing and gently blowing trees.
"H-hi..sorry I only just realized I'd been here so long..i-i don't..I dont know...."
You began to cry at your self
"I'm sorry....I don't even feel like I'm here anymore."
He told you to stay put and before long you saw a boy with mismatched hair run through the park gate all the way up to you finally kneeling before you
"It's alright...your very cold. I see youve been crying alot?"
He ran his thumb over the dry dripped mascara that has previously ran down your face.
"You think it's stupid right? Me sat here on a park bench crying in front of you." You manage out a teary laugh. He shakes his head and places a hand on your knee
"Not at all..I think we should get you home don't you agree?"
You stand up and disagree
"No. I don't want to go home right now....can I stay at yours?"
He hesitates and steps back rubing the back of his neck with one hand nervously.
"E-erm...I, I don't know. My dad's home tonight and i-"
You cut him off
"I don't care about your dad, please shoto...."
He takes his hand of his neck and to your suprise he interwines his fingers with your icey cold ones.
"Okay, you can stay at mine. Come on we better get going."
You both walk on out the park and walk along the empty road surrounded by houses.

Oh todoroki, you have no idea how I feel about you.

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"Love doesnt always find the right path,
Not straight away...."
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