The Interview.

Chapter Six

It's the following Friday night and I'm stood in the bathroom brushing my hair. I'm going round to Chris' in a bit, I'm really looking forward to seeing him again, we've spoke every night but it's been a while since I last saw him. I apply makeup, not loads, he always says I don't need any because I'm a girl with "natural beauty". How sweet. I finish getting ready and step outside, the cold air shocks me. It's nearly Christmas, but it doesn't feel like it. Finally I arrive outside his house, for a big rock star it's very modest. But then I think maybe he used to live somewhere else. Oh no. Poor Chris. I've still not spoken to him properly regarding the grounds on which his last relationship ended, feels y'know, a tad awkward....I walk up the path to the door and knock, he answers almost immediately. 

"Hello!" He beams.

"Hi!" I breathe

"Come in..." I step inside. This is the first time I've ever seen his house properly, when it's not been dark and I've been hurrying outside. It's just....Chris. It's a tad...I wouldn't call it messy more just...cluttered. Organised mess, sheets of paper seem to be everywhere. He must scribble down his ideas. I can almost see him doing it now. I suppress a giggle.

"What?!" He asks. I jump. Oh what do I say?!

"Oh...just thinking this is the first time I've seen your house when it's not been dark and I've not been in a hurry to leave." I hurriedly reply, hoping I don't look too suspicious, he smirks.

"Well, no...I'm hoping you won't be in a hurry to leave tonight...." I raise my eyebrows. "Well I er..no I just" 

I giggle at him, he's so awkward and adorable. "Oh don't worry, Chris. I know what you meant."

"Phew! Anyway come through, er you might have heard I'm not the best cooker and er, I didn't really feel like having to call the fire brigade round today...so I ordered us a takeaway curry...that alright?"

"Yeah! Smells amazing!" I laugh. Bless him.

The food is great and afterwards we sit on the sofa in his living room facing each other.

"I love your house...I mean for a big rock star like you it's very modest!"

"Well...uh...yeah it's only needed for one of me...and the two little ones who come every weekend. I used to live in a place much bigger than this when uh....when it was the four of us...."

"Oh I'm sorry..." what have I done?!

"No it's okay."

"Are you sure you're ready...you know for...."

"Another relationship? I think so....it's been nearly a year and a half. But please just, don't ever hurt me like that again. It took everything I've got to come out of that black hole...Do you know what the hardest thing is?"

"What?"

"Watching the one you love, you adore, you'd go anywhere for, do anything for, fall in love with someone else I...I..." 

His body starts to shake as tears run down his cheeks. I move forward and wrap my arms around him as he buries his head in my shoulder and sobs. I can feel each sob shaking his body to the core...oh no...what have I done...

"Oh Chris....I'm so so sorry." I whisper to him.

"No...don't be...you need to know before we can go any further."

I nod my head. He's right.

"I think we...we..both loved each other at the start but...well...we used to row a bit and the rows got more and more frequent. Then she decided to well. Lie to me. Cheat on me. But I still loved her...I...I pretended not to know but....I...did...I think...deep...down....you...always kind of.....kn-kn-know." His words were punctuated by sobs until finally he couldn't take it...we sat there for a bit and I held him as he wept. "I've never spoke about it before..but..I..."

"It's okay Chris, you don't need to carry on."

"No...I...do...so one night she brought him back...the guy...and well...made me leave...so I stayed with Jonny from the band for a bit he....he looked after me...I didn't think I could go on I mean...man...I loved her so much....I was so...so...down and I just....the only thing keeping me going  was the band and the kids...I...well..." he began to cry "That was...such...a...dark....time...." He buries his head in my shoulder again.

"Oh Chris..." I whisper as I stroke the tears away from his cheeks...his eyes are red from crying...I thought I was going to cry too.

"Please....please...just...just promise me something....just one thing....if you....if you ever find someone else then don't break my heart like that....I can't go through it again....I....I just...."

"Chris, you have to believe me...I would never ever do anything like that to you...I love you too much to put you through that...I can't believe anyone could ever do that to you.." I looked into his eyes "You have to believe me. I love you."

"I do...I really do...I love you too...you've made me happier than I ever thought I could be again."

Fairly soon after that we went to bed. He held me and played with my hair as I told him about my past. Then I drifted off to sleep in Chris' arms. I didn't think I'd ever felt more at home.