All Is Fair In Love & Highschool

Euphoria

Asia Carter

School has been a bore, nothing interesting has happened over the last few weeks other than the usual.

Wake up, breakfast, rush to school, school, drag myself back home, eat, study, sleep and repeat.

The weekends I spend in my house, binge watching whatever I can find, sometimes both girls and boys join but mostly everyone has been busy with their own thing lately.

Everyone being so caught up with their own life, Kai and I have been spending more alone time together than usual. I've learnt that there is so much more to him than his cool bad boy jerk persona.

He has a soft, kind, caring side to him, now and then he lets how much he cares about the little shit shine through and in that moments I can't find any reason to hate him.

I think we're pass that stage though, the denial. He's attractive, he's always been, it's just now that I'm attracted. Even though I'm not sure about like liking him.

One night in bed while I was you know, touching myself because I'm a sexually frustrated virgin thats horny a lot of the time but anyway the point is I was touching myself and couldn't get off.

My mind wandered to Kai and I kept imagining how he'd break my back and drill my shit, the nasty things he'd whisper in my ear and how he'd groan and grunt as he would release in me.

And I had the best orgasm I'd ever had, or could ever give myself. Then I went on thinking that I want to lose my virginity and I want him to do it.

Now that the thought crossed my mind I can't get it out and unfortunately once my mind made up there isn't anyone or anything, not even me that could change it.

Now every time I'm alone it's all I think about. I'm obsessing.

Fuck.

I've been weighing pros and cons, gaining the confidence to spit it out, then shying the fuck back down. I'm tired of it.

Which is why I'm in the shower right now, shaving everywhere. And giving my body the full treatment because I'm so done over thinking this shit.

After moisturising my body and putting on perfume, I slip on some red lacy lingerie and then my knee length boots as well as my long black coat, covering all my exposed skin.

It's about something to nine on a rainy friday night, Kai is definitely at home in bed and because our mothers are having another girls night, tonight is absolutely perfect.

I sound like I have my shit together but on the inside I'm freaking because what if he rejects me and this gets awkward or some shit like that.

So many scenarios of ways this could go wrong is running through my head but before I could turn around and go back home, he is already opening his front door.

My dumbass rang the bell of course he's opening the damn door.

"Hey Asia, what's up?" He asks me snapping me out of my thoughts, making my eyes look at him properly to see he's shirtless and his grey pants hanging low on his hips showing his prominent v line.

My hormones are going crazy, I had to clench my lady bits. The way his leaning against the door frame doesn't help either.

"Asia, what's the matter ? What happened? Come inside you going to catch a cold in this weather" Kai mutters pulling my arm dragging me into the lions den and then slamming his door shut.