Why am I not enough?
Why do I always have to be the second choice?
I am fucking worthless. Maybe I really shouldn't be alive.
The only things that I can do is hurt others and make their life worse. Why do people think that I'm doing them good when in reality I don't. I don't deserve shit. I am a small piece of trash in this disgusting world that is slowly going down. Maybe I actually deserve this amount of pain that I have to feel right now.
Maybe all of this actually has a reason and maybe that weird ass manifestation worked but it didn't work in my favour.
People around me have depressions and want to kill themselves and their situation is getting worse and worse every single day. People are replacing me even though I'm right here. I don't want to be replaced. Am I really so worthless that I always have to be replaced by every important person in my life? Why do people not care about me and my feelings at all? All this shit happens and if I would break down people would say that I'm overreacting and overthinking again. Everything is going down and I can't do shit about that. Everything that is happening is hurting me in every possible way and I can't change shit because no matter how much I try to change it I'll still remain the worthless piece of toxic shit that I am and always have been.
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Nugatlations
RandomRandom rules I come up with. Also random sh!t I come up with. And maybe some random things that happened in my life.
