I Still Love You | Suna x Reader

19

Suna's POV

Winter's mean cold weather.

Cold weather means snow.

Snow means cloudy skies.

Cloudy skies mean dark colors.

Dark colors mean depression.

Everything goes wrong in winter, somehow. No matter my age, everything is the same every. single. winter.

Since second year it had been the same. There was a chance of hope for it to change but the flatline I heard from her room ruined it all for me.

She was right. This wasn't supposed to happen so it was bound something else happened to her. Maybe the other Y/n wasn't meant to happen either since there was too many coincidences with the coma and stuff.

"Suna!" Mio slapped my face.

I stopped zoning out and looked down at her. She had tears in her eyes and couldn't face me.

"She's fully gone.. again.." she whispered, choking on her words.

It didn't hurt as much last time. Last time I felt full, happy emotions that were there got forced out since the sadness filled it.

Instead, it was just blank. I stared at the door while the doctor's covered her up with the blanket.

I looked over at everyone else and they had the same expression as I had. Mio was the only emotional one, but to be fair she was always emotional. I would know.

"It happened again, didn't it?" Osamu asked.

I looked at the doctor's leave, mad at themselves for not doing better.

I nodded and turned to him. "It feels different"

"Like something we're not supposed to have is taken away, huh?" Yuki asked.

I hummed know response, looking down. I didn't even realize my fists were clenched. The force was making them white as a sheet, so I let go quickly to let the blood flow.

"How are you guys not crying?" Mio whispered. "She was our best friend."

"Was" Atsumu said. "We felt this five years ago."

It was quiet until we heard more sobs. It was coming from Atsumu.

He shook his head. "How did we loose her twice?"

This time Yuki looked like she was on the verge of tears.

I turned to Osamu and he was quickly walking away.

He didn't want to deal with it again. Most definitely not.

"We're not supposed to be in this hospital" Mio sniffed. "We're not even supposed to be talking about how she's dead.. this-"

I turned on my heels and walked out the door into the hallway.

This was all sappy. Way too sappy.

~•~
This was all a jinx.

The events from high school to now still led to all of this happening. It didn't stop until now.

What we thought had ended five years ago barely ended now.

The thing ending is Y/n. The full existence.

Out of all those words I could choose to say starting from when she saw me running at her in my pajamas in the snow to meet her at the skating rink to now, walking in the rain, I would choose only four.

Four special words that mean something so meaningful that only a few people would understand from the right person.

I still love you.

Everything about her I loved. Correction: love.

The past five years was just a preview of what it would be like without her. Now, it's the real thing. The first chapter.

Someone there for so little meant so much for me, so hopefully she still loves me too.