It's you | Jenlisa

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LISA POV

TW : DRUGS, NEEDLES, SWEARING

I got home and its like 4:23pm. I made my way inside whilst taking my shoes off looking around for my mom. "ma? are you home?!" i shouted whilst looking for her around the house, I found her in the bathroom unconscious. "mom!" I rush to her and crouch down to wake her up.

"mom!" i shouted and gently try and shake her "mom wake up!" i cried still shaking her body. I was about to call an ambulance when she started to wake up. "ma are you ok?! what the hell happened?!" i spoke loudly almost shouting and i brought her to my embrace, engulfing her in a a big hug. whilst hugging her i seen some little bags in the corner with different substances and needles. i look around the floor used and fresh needles scattered everywhere, with wide eyes i turn back to her and look at her face and she's giving me a slight smile. i could tell she was off it cause she always treats me so badly, but yet i can't find it in my heart to hate her.

"mom what are you doing to your self?!" i shouted

"Lisa theres nothing to worry about" she said getting up

"no mom what the fuck do you mean don't worry?!" at this point i was boiling with anger at how she just brushed the situation over like it was nothing. it seems like just some joke to her.

"i mean Lisa mind your own buisness!" she walked away but i followed her still trying to get an explanation.

"no mom i come home back from school and find you LYING UNCONCIOUS ON THE FUCKING FLOOR MOM!" I screamed in rage my blood boiling at how she's so calm in the stituation.

"LALISA MANOBAN DON'T RAISE YOUR FUCKING VOICE AT ME!" she screamed back " I DONT SEE WHY IT I HAVE TO TELL YOU" she eyed me up and down pointing at me "AN INCOMPETENT HUMAN LIKE YOU ANY DETAILS ABOUT MY LIFE!" She bellowed at me. i could feel my eye sight becoming blurry with the tears building up in my eyes.

I wiped my tears away and turned to her, " you know what mom im so sick and tired at how irresponsible you are, and how you don't even care about your child! FOR FUCK SAKE YOU DONT EVEN CARE ABOUT YOURSELF!" by then i had tears streaming down my face unable to control them to stop. i was shaking in anger and i remembered i have to meet Jennie. " you know what mom im sick of looking out for you for you to give nothing but shitty treatment in return. i'm done" with that i began to go up the stairs and heard her shout from below.

"i never needed you nor do i need your useless self, god i don't even know why your in this world your such a waste of air" she spat. going to do whatever whilst i'm in my room crying at how i could have such a cruel mother. i wiped my tears and checked the time i don't have long to get ready to meet Jennie. Jennie Kim. just the thought of her makes my all flustered inside.

- time skip - 10 mins later -

I came out of the shower and got dressed . i chose to wear my beige nike sweater and some jeans and i threw some random trainers on too. I finished getting ready, and i got my phone from my bedside table and texted Jennie telling her i was gonna be a bit late meeting her. after i messaged her i went down stairs to put my shoes on to leave and i see my mom passed out on the table i just sigh and exit closing and locking the door behind me.