𝙤𝙣𝙡𝙮 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙙𝙖𝙧𝙡𝙞𝙣𝙜, 𝙤𝙣𝙡𝙮 𝙮𝙤𝙪.

𝕮𝖍𝖆𝖕𝖙𝖊𝖗 24

We got back home laughing and kissing each other. Of course I won the race but it was close. If I wasn't fast enough Niroshan could've won.

"I love you." I said as I went to change.

"I love you too." He yelled back.

He went to do some paperwork. So he wouldn't be up for some time. I got changed into black sweatpants and an oversized white t-shirt. I then decided to watch some netflix in the meantime.

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"I HAVE DEPRESSION ALRIGHT? I NEVER TOLD YOU GUYS BECAUSE YOU THINK DEPRESSION IS A DISEASE AND CAN BE TREATED WITH MEDICINE OR YOU THINK I'M LYING OR OVER REACTING. I'M LEAVING. DON'T YOU DARE COME AND LOOK FOR ME OR I WON'T COME BACK!" The main character of my show said. I paused my show and shut my laptop, gently placing it on the table.

I sat on the side of my bed and looked out the window as tears welled up in my eyes.

"Babe?"

I looked at Niroshan with my teary eyes and he immediately sat down beside me and pulled me into his chest.

"What's wrong baby?" He asked, rubbing my back.

"The main character in my show has depression and they just told their family that they have depression but their family thought of it as a disease, that's why they kept it a secret for so long."

"That's what you're crying about?" He asked softly, rubbing circles on my back.

"No. It reminded me of when I had depression." I replied.

"You had depression?" He asked, shock taking over his facial features.

"Yeah. No one really knew because I always covered it with a smile. That's why when I say I used to have depression, they would be shocked. Everyone knew me as the happy friend. I grew up in a toxic household and I didn't know how it felt to be loved. All I knew was to love and I loved way too hard. I was also betrayed a lot so I didn't have anyone to trust. I was at my lowest low at such a young age and was always at my lowest low. I would pretend like I didn't feel sad and kept pretending until you came." At this point, tears were rolling down my cheeks and my voice kept cracking. I continued.

"You came into my life and made me happy. You showed me what it felt like to be loved and you showed me unconditional love no matter what. You would always make me happy and you were always there for me. For my highest highs and my lowest lows. You were there. You never left. Ever since you came into my life you were saving me. I never cried because you hurt me. I would only cry at the thought of you not being with me. I love you. You saved me. I will always love you and be there for you. I don't deserve you. Not one bit. I'm lucky. Lucky to have you. You could have any girl in this world but you chose me. And I will forever be grateful." I hugged him as he hugged me back tighter.

"If anything I don't deserve you. Ever since my ex cheated on me and my brother died, I've hated people ever since." He said as he hugged. I pulled away.

"You had a brother?" I asked.

"Yeah. He was the best. He was murdered. He didn't deserve to die so young. My ex knew that my brother died but she still cheated on me. Ever since then, I've hated people. Hated everyone. I only showed affection to Aadithya and my parents. Arthi then came into Aadithya life and when we first met I didn't like her. When time went on, I started to like her and now she's like my little sister. I've always been cold and never liked anyone because people suck. Never had a girlfriend, never thought about getting married, never thought about having a family. Once, it was my dream. Then, I hated it. That was until you came in. When I first saw you, my cold heart warmed. It was like I can't be cold and mean to you. I never understood why until I realized when I was falling in love. I thought I would be incapable of love but clearly not." He chuckled softly.

"You showed me real love. Showed me how it feels like to be loved. I never believed in soulmates till I fell in love with you. Ever since, I wanted us forever. I want us forever. I started thinking about getting married to you and having you be the mother of our kids. It's all coming true. Tesoro, I belong with you and only you baby."

"Only me?"

"Only you, my girl."

"Only me?"

"Only you babe."

"Only me?"

"Only you darling, only you." He said as he softly kissed me.

"You stole that from a song." I said, resting my head on his chest, looking out the window.

"But it's true. It's how I feel." He chuckled.

"I love you." I softly said, closing my eyes.

"I love you too." Was all I heard before I drifted off to sleep.