Not Yet (The Academy)

Chapter 1: Two Pink Lines.

Across the little screen, there are two pink lines going down.
Oh, shit.
Oh, shit, shit.
I let go of the test, but when I look again, the pink lines are still there.
Pregnant.
I sit on the floor holding the pregnancy test and stare at it while my other hand travels down my belly. It feels rounded, a little. Because of a baby. Like a human being inside of me.
The thought both panics me and makes me feel... joy. A little Gabriel, or North, or Owen... Holy shit, what am I going to tell the guys? It's been only three years since we moved together. I just turned twenty, this... It's way too soon. It's not time, this won't work.
And yet, there is baby growing up inside of me right now.
I'm too scared. I'm too young. I'm too inexperienced, just as them nine. How will this go? How will I tell them? When?
Shaking my head, I grab another test from the bag. These things are sometimes wrong, right?
...Right?
Please, not yet.
But five minutes later, I still see pink lines. Another five and one more pregnancy test, it's the same.
I pass my hands through my face, looking at the three positives in the sink.
What am I going to do?
"Sang?" Sean knocks the door. "Are you okay?"
"Yes! I'll be out in a minute!" I say. Mistake: My voice sounds strangled for the unshed tears.
There are faster knocks.
"Sang!" Gabriel this time.
I can't talk right now since they'll hear my broken voice again, so I make a pause to calm down. Then I hear footsteps and whispering. North tell me from the other side of the door that, if I don't open the door, he will break it. And that sounds like something he would do. I quickly star to hide evidence before one of them see this. I still haven't planned how to tell them! I grab the big supermarket plastic bag with the rest of the tests and hide it inside the shower. I'm taking the positive pregnancy tests when the door slams open.
And it's too late.
They all are standing there in the hall, oustide the bathroom, looking in. North grabs me by the shoulders and scans me up and down... until he sees them. He freezes. My heart stops.
Someone lets out a curse. Gabriel, maybe. Probably Gabriel. Surely Gabriel.
"Pookie..." Sean starts, with something that sounds like fear in his voice. "Are you...?"
"Miss Sorenson?" Owen walks to me, next to a frozen North.
And I just can't find my tongue. I open and close my mouth over and over. Suddenly, it feels too hot in here, too air reduced.
"I need air" I finally say, walking past each one of them and opening a window. I put my head out, reminding me of a dog.
Maybe I'll get one for the baby. Of course, when she or he is grown up...
I open my eyes and turn to look at them, waiting for me.
"I'm pregnant"
Hell breaks loose.