𝙼𝚢 𝚕𝚘𝚜𝚎𝚛 💗||tanaka x reader

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Tanaka's pov:
I got onto the bus not even waiting for y/n,knowing, if i saw her i would immediately burst into tears, Before i sat down i told the bus driver "Y/n's gonna be a bit late, can you stay for about 3 more minutes? If they're not here by then you can leave."
"Alright kid"
"Thanks"

I sat down and put  my headphones in and started playing my favorite song and looked out the window. Then in the corner of my eye i saw someone board the bus. It was y/n.
We made eye contact for a split second then looked away. She had sat down when i felt someone sit by me

"Dude."
I looked over to see Yuu sitting by me
"What the hell is going on with you two?" he asked
"Don't worry about it..." i replied
We sat in silence for a bit when he asked
"... Did she reject you?..."
I looked over at him then looked away.
"Well...im not sure, she said she'll think about it..."
"Oh..im sorry.."
"What do you mean? She didn't say yes and she didn't say no."
"Bro. When a girl says they'll think about it, it means they're going home and never getting back to you about it"
"Really?"
"Yeah, so,im sorry..."
It felt like i'd been stabbed in the heart,my heart absolutely ached. The sliver of hope i had in my heart had went away. I don't know why i asked her on that date, i don't know why i kissed her, i regret everything that happened that day.

Me and noya sat in silence the rest of the ride.
I continued my school day finding it hard to focus because of the pain in my chest
at some point i asked to go to thr bathroom because i felt like i was about to cry.
Once i got into the bathroom i stood in front the mirror, tears streaming down my face.

"Why did she kiss me??... Why was she flirting with me... Was she leading me on?.. Was i just some fucking toy to her?! Were we even real friends? GOD WHY THE HELL DID I HAVE TO FALL IN LOVE WITH HER?!!"

Out if anger i punched the mirror hurting my hand in the process
"Ah shit!.." i cursed under my breath i slowly walked out the bathroom when i saw nishinoya walk in
"Dude what happened to your hand?! its bleeding!!"
"I know so get out of my way..." i angrily said and shoved past the small second year.

"Whats his problem?..." i heard him say as i walked out the bathroom and to the nurses office