Dad? [zayn malik ddm fanfiction]

Chapter 10// Secrets

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It’s been a week since i started cutting. It gave me so much more relief than drawing did.

I do still draw, just not as much. Everyday, i wear a long sleeve

jumper and jeans. My dad hasn’t talked to me since that morning.

I’m memorized by his words, “Sometimes i think she’s a mistake of a child!”

I can’t get that one phrase out of my head.

Anna, Tommy, James, and Jacob are still being rude to me like always. I didn’t suspect a change in their behavior anyways.

They’re also reasons to why i cut. It’s not all just about my dad.

The harsh comments that come out of their mouths impact my self-esteem.  Tommy though, doesn’t say much anymore. In the hallways at school, he just looks at me with sadness in his eyes.

I plan on keeping my cutting a secret. If anyone finds out, they’ll tell my parents, and uncle and aunts. I don’t want that to happen.

As i walk out of the front doors of the school building, Anna, Tommy, James, and Jacob all walk out beside me.

“Hey whimp, were all coming over tonight for dinner, hope your not showing up for dinner, your too fat for it!” James snickers.

Tears form in my eyes, i’ve always been a healthy weight for my size, which, might i add, is small.

“o-ok..” i whimper out quietly, i then look at all of them,”Give me your homework assignments, i’ll do them for you guys so you don’t have to worry about them..”

James, Jacob, and Anna smirk and give me all of their homework assignments. i look over at tommy, whose eyes are sad and filled with guilt.

“it’s ok tommy, you won’t get in trouble if i do it for you.. p-promise..” i say quietly.

“i can do my homework, it’s ok. Thanks for the offer though.” he says while looking down.

“anytime..” i whisper and begin walking home infront of them.

“Why didn’t you give her your homework?” anna asked him.

“because, i’m smart enough to do it on my own.” that shut all three of them up.

Once we got home, i said hello to my uncles and dad quickly and went upstairs to start all the homework. Before i started it though, i went to my bathroom and got out my blade.

Once the cold, smooth metal touched my skin, i sighed in relief. I made 3 three cuts.

I cleaned them, and put on a thin sweater.

Then, i started all of the homework. I was halfway finished when there was a knock on my door.

“Come in.” i said without looking up from the math problem i was working on. I felt my bed dip down infront of me. I looked up to see tommy starring back at me. My eyes got wide.

“hi.”

“hi..” i say back quietly, “Do you n-need help with your h-homework?” i ask shakely. I always get nervous when im around my cousins. They tend to hurt me alot, and i try and avoid it as much as i can.

“why are your stuttering?” he asks.

“i-i..” “please be honest roxy..” he whispers with sad eyes.

“I-i don’t want you to hurt me..” i whimper as tears prick my eyes.  Now he looks as if he were about to cry,

“I’m so sorry for always being a dick to you rox.. you never disserved it.. I don’t know how you managed me and the boys being mean to you..”  he whispers.

“it’s ok, i forgive you..” “really?” “yeah.. atleast someone cares about me..”

“rox?” “yeah?” “What’s that red stuff on your sleeve?”