Dad? [zayn malik ddm fanfiction]

Chapter 11// Caught

I’m standing infront of both of my parents. Mom had tears in her eyes, dad has rage in his. It looked like he was about to kill me.

“Roxy… Why?” mum asks. I just look down at my feet with tears escaping my eyes. They found out about me cutting. Tommy told them before everyone left to go home.

“You such an attention seeker!” Dad yells at me.

“Zayn, calm down. Let her explain her feelings.” mom says.

“She shouldn’t have to!! She’s only wanting attention!” he roars.

“ENOUGH!!!” i scream as loudly as i could. “I’m sick and tired of this! let me talk for once dad! then you can ground me later! Everyday, you go to Anna, your always proud of her and never me! she gets a bad grade and everythings alright! i get a grade below a 95 and i fail at life! It’s obvious dad!you pick favourites! congradulations! Anna’s your favorite! WE ALL KNOW! the whole family even knows, they just don’t wanna hurt my feelings. I feel so unloved by you dad, i feel like you hate me, and most of the time, you prove that you do hate me! And  it hurts me to even look at you because i know you don’t love me!” by now, i was crying, “That’s why i started to cut, it gave me comfort. Dad i’ve been so depressed for years now because of you, anna, jacob, james, and tommy! They all bully me at school! if you ever paid attention to me, you would see the bruises i have from them, all over my arms, stomach, legs, and my back! Tommy is the only one who hasn’t physically hurt me before! He just started being nice to me because i told him about how much you hate me and think im a mistake of a child! I know i’m a mistake of a child, if you really want me gone, then fine! i’ll leave and never come back, i rather be dead instead of being here and feeling unloved. I just want you to know, that no matter what dad i’ll always love you because your my favourite person in the world, even if your always mean to me. I love you daddy and i’m sorry i couldn’t be the picture perfect child for you.” I finish my rant with tears streaming down my face, and me running up to my room, slamming the door, and locking it. Dad’s facial expression, had displayed was something new to me, it showed regret, and pain.

it reminded me of this one time when i scraped my knee on the pavement of our driveway. Dad came running, with the saddest look on his face because his baby girl was hurt.

Now, was just like that time.

I think he finally realized the truth.

As i sat on my bed, holding my head in my hands as i cried, i heard my phone ring in between the mass of blankets that was piled up on my bed.

i looked up and searched for it quickly. I looked at the caller ID and frowned.

Tommy.

i pick up the phone,

“are you happy now? are you happy that my dad hates me even more and he thinks i’m an attention seeker because of this?!” i yell into my phone.

i hear him wince over the line. He probably thought i was going to be quiet like i always am.

i’m infuriated with him. he had no right to go tell my parents about this situation. It wasn’t any of his fucking business!

“I cannot fucking believe you tommy tomlinson! i know you thought that this would make it better but it didnt! you were wrong and you made my life a bigger nightmare that’s consuming me! Why couldn’t you just fucking leave me alone and just continue bullying me!? I would be better off!” I yell.

“I was doing you a fucking favor you brat! Maybe you should thank me for helping you!” he yells back.

“Why would i thank you for doing something that was so stupid?”

“it wasnt a stupid move roxy, it was a smarter move that you should’ve done weeks ago! This is going to help you love, its not going to hurt you, now that your parents know how you feel, they, especially your dad, will change their attitude! they’re going to realise how upset and broken you really are! they’re going to help you get better. And i’m pretty sure Anna, James, and Jacob are going to get into plenty of trouble for what they’ve been doing to you.”

“you honestly think my dad is going to change for a lowlife nerd like me? he wont care tommy. nobody does except for you and my mom. i just want this all to end. I’m sick and tired of it, and if that means that i have to ignore some people, then i’ll do it. I guess i should thank you.. so thank you, and i’m sorry i lashed out on you. i was just angry that you told them but honestly i’m really greatful. Thank you.”

“it’s alright, i would be angry too, oh and your welcome. I have to go finish up some homework, if you need anything, just call me kay?” he asks.

i nod, forgetting he can’t see me.

“Yeah, thanks. talk to you later tommy. bye.”

“Bye rox.” We both hung up, and i flopped down on my bed. I sigh. Looks like I’m just going to have to suck it up and take what’s given to me. Time to apply corrections.