It's the night we got home from our cancelled tour and I am sitting in at the kitchen table, writing in my notebook while Brian makes us supper. Ginger, Zim, and Pogo still aren't home and I doubt they will be tonight. I take a break from my writing and look at the back of Brian. He stirs a pot of homemade soup on the stove. For a full time artist, he can cook like he is a chef. The smell of his cologne mixed with the smell of the soup calms me. I close my eyes and breathe it in. "Do you ever think we'll live alone together?" I ask my lover. Brian stops stirring the soup while he replies, "Is that something on the list of things you want to do during these two weeks?" He laughs. I don't answer and I look down at my notebook. I have the two most important suggestions written down so far:
· Get married in the abandoned house.
Yes, the abandoned house that Brian found me in the day I ran away from home. It's such an odd place to get married, but it's special to both of us. We haven't been there since we ran away from home to kick start the band. It could be fallen down to ruins by now for all we know, but I'd still like to get married in that woods at least.
· Vist my father.
This is a idea that could turn horrible in seconds. I want to see my dad. I feel like he's changed, and possibly matured in a way. He hasn't sent me any letters since before we started the tour. I want to see him one last time before I-
Brian interuppts me from my thoughts by telling me that the soup is ready. Before I get up to help myself he brings me a bowl and smiles. His eyes look at me so lovingly.
How am I supposed to tell this man that the love of his life is going to die?
Okay yep whoa, death.
also does anyone remember the abandoned house Jeordie's talking about that was featured in Maniggy x♥x ??
