Everyone needs someone to stand with, eat with, travel with and live with. In short they need someone to love.
But not me.
I forbid myself to fall inlove again. Kasi ako mismo, alam ko na mauubos na-naman ako. Mag mu-muka na-naman akong tanga. And I am not putting myself in that position ever AGAIN.
Never again.
Begging for someone to stay with me? Ha! I lost my life! I lost confidence and pride! I lost my family— My friends! Why? Kasi tinaboy ko sila! At hinayaan naman nila ko.
That made me realize... maybe I don't need anyone.
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"I'll be good, I promise. Just please give me a chance to prove myself." Lexter said putting his hands on my table.
I'm really really sorry, but I can't.
Lexter is a good guy, I know that! He was my neighbor before when I was a kid and I sometimes play with him at our play room. But I really can't give him a chance.
"No. Get out." I said with a cold tone not facing him.
"Why?"
This time I faced him. "Leave."
"A-ano?"
Sorry, But you really have to leave.
"Leave." I repeated and continued reading my book.
He let out a heavy sigh "Okay, please take care of yourself and—"
I glared at him."I said, leave." Cutting whatever he will say.
Please... just leave, before I take back what I've said.
"O-okay." He still managed to smile before leaving.
"Oh! Uhm, can you stop sending me gifts na? The ones with a dandelion paper bag." Pahabol ko pa.
"H-huh? I always give you my gifts personally."
Then who's sending me those gifts?
"O-oh okay, you may now leave."
"Bye" He even smiled before closing the door.
"I'm sorry." I emotionally whispered.
I just can't be with anyone, kasi alam kong ibibigay ko na-naman lahat ng meron ako.
Someone knocked on my door so I immediately fixed myself.
Oh, it's Naria!
"Ma'am—"
"What?"
"C-can I come i-in p-po?"
I think I scared her.
"Yes."
She entered with a paper bag on her hand. "May nag pa-pabigay p-po." Nakatungong aniya.
Oh it has the same paper bag as yesterday, and the other yesterday and the day before that and the other day before that.
"Araw-araw nalang may nag papabigay ahh, Itapon mo na yan." I coldly said.
"It's marshmallows daw po."
That's my favorite! Who gave it kaya?
"Hindi ko tinatanong kung ano ang laman niyan. Ang sabi ko itapon mo."
"P-pero sabi po k-kasi ni s-sir—"
I cut her off. "Sino ba ang boss mo saaming dalawa, ha?!" I slightly raised my voice making her rattle.
"I-ikaw po."
"Alam mo naman pala eh! Now leave!"
"Y-yes po!" Nag mamadali syang lumabas at hindi pa naisara ang pinto ng opisina ko.
I'm so sorry, Naria.
I just don't want to be involved to someone. Besides I can buy my own marshmallows naman, duh.
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