𝖒𝖔𝖓𝖘𝖙𝖊𝖗𝖘 (arminxreader fanfic)

𝕮𝖍𝖆𝖕𝖙𝖊𝖗 𝕺𝖓𝖊: 𝕹𝖎𝖌𝖍𝖙𝖒𝖆𝖗𝖊𝖘

word count: ~900

*authors note at the end* 

trigger warnings for this chapter: severe trauma, mentions of gore and pain, violence, strong angst, survivors guilt (you might have to squint) 

Screaming. That's all I heard. Shrieking so loud I close my eyes- like that would help. Pressing my hands to my ears did nothing to muffle the sound that's haunted me for years. Stomp stomp stomp. Every step reverberated in my core- only a Titan walks like that.

No! Not her. Anyone but her. But it didn't matter- my sister had already been spotted. There was nothing anyone could do- nothing I could do. Her screams of fear turned into shrieks of pain- the monster had grabbed her.

Don't look dont look dont look I chanted in my head, but then she called my name.

And I looked.

There was a constant stream of tears on her face- it was like a river. Her eyebrows are knitted together in pain, her legs twisted at unnatural angles, and one arm was poking out of the Titans fist that was encasing her.

"survive! I love y-" she called out, only to erupt in a short-lasting wail. the Titan had lowered her into its mouth and bitten her in half. Blood began to pound in my ears, but that didn't stop me from hearing every snap of Peony's bones. I knelt in the dirt, one of my legs pinned in the rubble that was once our house. 

I watched helplessly as the monster took from me the only thing I had ever loved in this world. Peony was dead- Why hadn't the screaming stopped?  It was when the monster had turned towards me did it dawn on me; I was the one doing the screaming. It bent down and stretched its arm out for me... 

I snapped my eyes open with a start, only to find them blurry and wet, and my throat raw. I blinked a couple times and the blurry figure in front of me sharpened.  "yn? Yn, are you okay?" Sasha, my bunkmate asked, concern marinating her voice. Embarrassed, I nodded. That was the third nightmare this week.

"Thank you" I rasped, taking the washcloth she offered, wiping away sweat and tears.

"You can go back to sleep now, I'm sorry."

She nodded and clambered into her bunk- the one on top of mine.

"You know," a soft voice said from across the room, "Your performance has been dropping lately." Ymir- our other roommate said. (there was an odd number of girls in the 104th, so Ymir got a bunk to herself). "Your lack of sleep has been taking its toll."

"I know... it's just-"

"Instead of making excuses, you should stop whatever is causing these nightmares," she growled.

I knew I should be mad, but she was right. "Ymir..." Sasha started, but a glare from Ymir silenced her.

"It's those two titans outside..." I began, hoping they would help me come up with a solution to get rid of these nightmares.

"Sawney and Bean?" Ymir asked.

"y/n, those two aren't going anywhere- you've seen that," Sasha said.

"Yeah, I know..." I said sheepishly. "It's just....I don't like them being so close."

"So kill them," Ymir suggested matter-of-factly. Sasha and I both stared. She only shrugged in response. "What?!" she exclaimed defensively. "They're titans! We're being trained to kill them. Hange can go outside the walls if she wants more- they're replaceable. No one would blame you."

"Ymir, Hange went through a lot of trouble to get those two. I can't kill them without a proper reason."

She waved me off. "It was just a suggestion."

"And it's not just those two bothering me...you know Eren? Is it true he turns into a titan? I mean... We all saw it and I know he helped us by pugging the wall but what if there are more shifters in our class?"

Ymir stiffened. "No one knows why Eren can shift- chances are, he's one of a kind. There no way all titans can be shifters."

"That's not what I'm saying- What if only some of them are. What if they aren't on our side?"

They both pondered this.

"Idk y/n, the other titans attacked Eren, I think Ymir's right- Eren's one of a kind," Sasha said softly.

"Anyways, it doesn't matter- if there are more shifters we'll find out" Ymir stated. She sounded so confident that I couldn't help but believe her.

"Has anybody talked to Eren? How'd he get his powers? Is there anything he can tell us?" 

Ymir shrugged.

"As far as I know Armin talked to some higher-ups and convinced them not to kill Eren. blah blah blah, they immediately came up with a plan to plug a hole in the wall went through with it right away, and now the freak is in a coma."

Sasha nodded, corroborating Ymir's story.

"Yeah, I heard the same thing. The MP's wanna kill him but Levi and eyebrows want him to join the scouts."

"Is that safe?" I wondered out loud.

"I don't see why not- even in his titan form he doesn't eat people."

"I guess...." I conceded.

Sasha poked her head over the edge of the bed.

"Go to sleep, y/n we can talk about it in the morning." She urged softly

I nodded "Sorry for waking you guys up."

Ymir only snorted. 

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𝖒𝖔𝖓𝖘𝖙𝖊𝖗𝖘

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HIIIII ok so I know this chapter was short I-'m hoping my other chapters will be a bit longer. im DYING for feedback so please please please let me know how I did or if you don't understand anything and ill be happy to help!  im trying to think if there's anything else but I cant remember sooooooo. 

OH! THANKS TO MY BESTIE WHO MADE THIS AWESOME COVER FOR ME ITS SO PRETTY I LOVE IT/ credits to the artists of the artwork she used- we don't own it she just edited them together :)

also if I forgot any trigger warnings please let me know! thanks 

and yeah don't be shy I love talking to ppl as long as ur not rude!  

i hope to see you soon! 

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