He's Just "Tired..."

Rant 2

Oh get this now. On top of ruining my art passion, my grandma also is incredibly picky over what clothes I'm allowed to get. We have very different opinions on style and she is the reason i hate clothes shopping with her. Wanna hear something? She thinks style is more important than comfort with wearing something!

She shouldn't be saying this to someone who has severe anxiety and that if something is too big or too small, my anxiety kicks up and makes me feel like I can't breath. She made me go get a jacket today and the one that felt most comfortable to me was one she didn't like because "it didn't look right on me." And then when i got upset, she told me to stop complaining and when I said I was trying to stand up for myself for once, she said "well don't then." And when i convinced her to let me get the jacket, she said "Fine! But you better not gain a single pound!" So there she was now bringing up my "supposed overweight" when I've been losing a lot of weight.

Then when i went to the car to calm down, when she got back to the car, she said this to me. "The reason you're not good with clothes shopping is because you don't care how you look. I was only trying to help you because you have no one else to guide you." Well, sorry you're so fucking manipulative of my choices to the point i have no sense of comfort in my own home! Today i wanted to style my hair to look wavy seeing as my hair is generally naturally wavy, so i styled it that way, feeling all confident with my hairstyle because I made the wave look really natural and it looked cool then she said "There shouldn't be a wave in your hair, let me fix it." As she then tried to comb the wave out of my hair to the point even my grandpa told her to leave it alone.

Me and my grandpa both know that with my grandma, if something does not go her way, it will not end well. It ALWAYS has to be however she likes it, no other options.