sometimes i wonder if anyone would care if i died
i don't think they would
i don't think most people would even notice
this week i burned some of my old su!c!de notes bc it was supposed to be this big gesture about how i was moving on or some shit like that
i posted about that and i was rlly proud of myself for doing it but no one seemed to care or understand why it was a big deal
then i was cleaning my room and everywhere i look i just find more notes and it just makes me sad because i haven't moved on, i'm in a really shit place now mentally
i just want to not exist anymore
it's 10pm now i'm so tired
