we're not dating

part eleven - just keep going

Debbie's POV

„Okay so what kind of evening do you wanna have? Sushi, wine and a bubble bath or more like Chinese, beer and trash TV?" Lou asked as we entered the hotel room. I closed the door behind me and smiled at her attempt to make that night a bit better for me. She stood in the middle of the room, leaning against the kitchen table so I stepped closer and wrapped my arms around her waist, positioning myself between her legs. "Doesn't really matter as long as I get to spend it cuddling with you in bed." I muttered and placed a soft, warm kiss on her lips. She sneaked her hands under my jacket and pulled me closer. "Well" She answered, giving me another peck "cuddles and kisses are definitely the main part of the program for tonight but you also need to eat." She kissed one more time and pulled away, smiling at me softly. I moved my arms from her waist up to her neck and hugged her tightly, resting my head on her shoulder. "I feel like having pizza tonight." I stated quietly, inhaling her perfume. "Okay, pizza it is." She kissed my head and stayed in that position for a few moments, nose buried in my hair. "What about the bath?" She asked, shifting herself to look at me. "I'll just take a quick shower." I smiled lightly and stepped away to go to the bathroom but turned around to face her one more time before getting in. "Join me?" I smirked and watched her smile getting bigger as she scanned me from head to toes. "I'll be there in a minute, let me just order the pizza."

I sighed as the warm water hit my body and closed my eyes, enjoying that moment. A few seconds later I felt a familiar pair of hands on my waist and soon after Lou's naked body was pressed gently against me from behind. She started caressing my back, my sides and my stomach while placing soft, open-mouthed kisses on my neck and shoulders. I haven't even noticed that I was now leaning fully against her, completely forgetting about the world around us. She felt like home and peace. She was my safe place. Her arms were now wrapped around me, nails scratching lightly against my skin and she lowered her head to my ear. "I love you. You are my whole world Deb." She left a small kiss on my temple after whispering that and I put my hands on hers, making her hug me even tighter. A part of me wanted to kiss her passionately and show her all the love I had for her, while the other part was holding back tears. I felt overwhelmed and relieved at the same time. Overwhelmed because of everything that had happened that day and relieved to have Lou there for me, showing me all that care and admiration. I turned around in her arms and looked into those beautiful ocean blue eyes. "I love you too. So much." I smiled lightly before closing the gap between us. We kissed slowly, all our emotions showing through that kiss. She moved to kiss my cheeks, the tip of my nose, my forehead, and my chin, while still caressing my body. None of the touching or kissing was sexual, it was all just pure care and love. I pulled away and rested my forehead against hers thinking about how much it would hurt to get treated by her the way I got treated by Tammy. If Lou ever betrayed or left me, I don't think I would ever be able to recover from that. It would destroy me completely and forever. "I promise I'll never hurt you. I'd rather die than make you suffer in any way. You're safe with me." She whispered as if she knew exactly what I was thinking about. I smiled and hugged her again, burying my nose in her neck.

In general, Lou has always been a cold bitch. She was straightforward, emotionless, and never gave a fuck about anyone's opinions or feelings. Even to her friends she's always been a bit distanced. She would spend time with them, laugh, go to parties, help them whenever they needed her, but she was not that person that would hug you and give you advices when you feel down – instead, she would yell at you for being a pussy and tell you to get your shit together. Which was her way of showing care, but let's be honest, it's hard to appreciate that kind of help. But when with me, she was a completely different person. It all started when we were planning the heist. She was always a little bit nicer to me than to the others, we were very close and used to spend a lot of time together and at some point we were just inseparable. Whenever I needed her, she was always there for me, she would make me bubble baths and remind me to eat something during the day. She would make me sleep and rest more, she would cuddle with me whenever I felt down. She was the most carrying person I've ever met and the feeling of being that one chosen person to be experiencing that from her was absolutely incredible.