Songs for Kim Seokjin (Kim Seokjin x Reader)

chapter 4

the following days are dreadful. so it was true that junior year is a real pain in the ass. every year is such a pain in your opinion.

however, it relieves your stress whenever you think about him. yes, the almighty kim seokjin. the song by the carpenters "close to you" fits him very well.

out of all the people you knew here in this school, he radiates the best. he's really out of the ordinary. kim seokjin is really from heaven.

you mindlessly stare at your classroom whiteboard as your teacher talks about her lecture about geography, which is one of your forte so you opt not to listen and continue daydreaming on kim seokjin

"ms. lee y/n, are you still with us?" your teacher finally noticed.

you stand up groggily with a small bow "yes, ma'am?"

"you're dozing off again? you know what we're discussing?"

then your teacher asks multiple questions which you answered swiftly. it amazes your classmates especially your friendship group that you knew geography well.

"next time, don't go daydreaming or dozing off. now, take this quiz sheets with results and give these to the sophomore class a's rep so you won't go sleeping next."

you walked your way to your teacher's desk and took the pile of paper then left. you're at the 3rd floor and good thing that the sophomore rooms are at the 2nd floor. the walk is quiet and you made sure you walk slightly slow to slack off.

once you reached sophomore class a's classroom, you checked from the outside room if there's teacher and there's none. you found two familiar students who are also your clubmates in songwriting.

you stepped back from the door taking multiple exhales as you don't know how to give out these papers and quite nervous about it. it took a good 5 minutes to compose yourself before you step in by the door.

you can tell that most of them turn to look at you when you stepped in. you did your best to look at the back wall to avoid eye contact.

"u-uhm. hi. who's your class rep?" you asked but did your best to hide your nervousness.

"hi y/n! it's me!" ah yes, the short mullet guy from the club. he walks up to you and you summon him outside of the classroom

"h-hi, so my geography teacher told me to give you these quiz results for your history subject" (an: the teacher teaches 2 subject). you handed him the papers "and sorry, i don't know your name."

you didn't noticed a good amount of guys listening by the door hiding and listening.

"hey, no worries. i'm kim hongjoong and my friend song mingi is the other one i'm with in the club."

"ah yes, the tall dude. i remember. sorry, i'm never good at memorizing names." you said briefly before removing eye contact.

"it's okay. we kinda know you, you know. it's a small school." hongjoong smiles at you

"right... hongjoong." then you noticed another guy walking to your direction. he's not that bad himself.

"ah yes, this is my fri-"

then the school bell rings for the sophomore's room signaling that the teacher is coming and class is about to begin.

"i need to go. bye." you give hongjoong and the other guy a small nod before walking briskly away from them.

when you're already out of sight, hongjoong looks at his friend. "ah, bad timing. sorry, dude." then he pats his shoulder before going inside the classroom with the quiz sheets.

his friend just stared into the direction where you last left.

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"wow, y/n. i never knew you're good at geography. you should teach us!" jimin beams and the others just nods in excitement.

it's now lunch time and your now sitting not just with lisa, jimin, hoseok, taehyung and jungkook. youngjae, bambam and yugyeom is now sitting with you guys since lisa and jungkook wanted to.

"well, my brothers kinda teaches me back when i was a kid."

"so you're the only girl with your siblings?" yugyeom asks

"yeah, my brothers are working in the city."

"your brothers might be handsome, i can feel that." lisa gushes "you're beautiful yourself, y/n" it made all of them nod in agreement

"shut up" you mutter which made them laugh next.

after that, they're talking about random that bambam just shared which you didn't pay attention to. you haven't seen your crush yet. where is he? then you turn your head to your left to see that he's sitting with his other senior friends including namjoon, yoongi, the guys named mark, jaebeom, jinyoung and jackson.

good thing that you gaze back to your plate before they notice you looking at their action. you've been careful already for 3 years not reveal them you're crushing on seokjin and you never want to screw that up.

"rosè! jisoo! sit here!" lisa calls out the other girls from your batch

"gosh, a teacher called us to do some errands. now me and jisoo are 13 minutes past lunchtime." rosè groaned and jisoo just sighed.

they continued to talk about random stuff which again, did not pay attention again. as much as your friends want to include you in conversations, a load of people in a conversation easily tires you.

a sudden volt of anxiety around lots of people fills your senses and it made you uncomfortable. 

you stand up and pack your bags and excused yourself. good thing about your friends is that they don't mind you leaving in situations like this. 

you quickly run towards the rooftop and have fresh air. when you reached the rooftop, you sat by your usual spot and closed your eyes and continued breathing easily.

after a few minutes, you find someone unexpected to sit beside you. he looks at you in worry.

"are you okay?"

is kim seokjin that concerned for you? following you up here in the rooftop?

"i'm fine." you said then looked away from him.

"you're not. i saw how anxious you were back in the cafeteria."

"huh?"

"you don't need to explain it to me, y/n. i'm actually here to help you ease up."

then seokjin brings up an airtight soup container and gives it to you.

"it's cream of mushrooms, i thought about making one for you."

you can't help it anymore but blush in front of him. you look down at the soup container and let your hair fall so he won't see your face. "thank you."

seokjin then fixes your hair and tucks it behind your ears. "you're pretty when your hair doesn't cover your face."

now you just want to burst and melt on the ground. can you even eat this soup he made? you can't even look up to his face.

"n-n-no."

"yes, you are. look at me"

he gently lifts your chin using his finger for you to look at him. doing this intense eye contact with makes you blush even more. he smiles at you.

"see? you're pretty, okay? now, eat that soup."

you nodded and start slurping the soup. it made you calmer and it's also now the same comforting silence you share with kim seokjin that makes your heart beats faster.

lunch is almost ending and you thank seokjin for spending the remaining of his lunch with you. you're all smiles and luckily no one is looking at your direction.

before you enter the classroom, you took a deep breath and now plaster your usual poker face before entering.

you're happy and contented already that no one knows about your little friendship with seokjin.