Our Collision

Aubre Pov: Numb

After little to no sleep since my little dream last night i decide to tell Pam that i'm going to take the day off work to go and see my dad in the hospital. Even after all hes done i cant let him go, all the hurt and the pain hes put me through still doesn't compare to the love i feel for him hes my father after all not a very good one but hes still my father. I miss him, i know that sounds weird because all he did was drink yell and hit me but i miss just seeing him everyday and making sure that hes okay i just feel like a part of me is missing.

I haven't learnt how to drive yet so i wait outside the cafe entrance and get my phone out to call an uber when a black range rover pulls up outside the cafe, i quickly glance at the car and see Jake exiting through the passenger side door next to the curb. 

 He gives me a little wave and comes over to say hi, we hold a little conversation about how our evenings were i make sure to keep out the sex dream i had about his brother. A car horn breaks up our conversation and we both turn to the direction of the noise, Colton pops his head out the car window and says "I haven't got all day waiting for you so come and get your stuff so i can leave and head to the gym" my eyes widen at his obvious rudeness towards his brother. He may have a pretty face but right now i want to punch him. Haha like father like daughter i guess, i grimace quickly get rid of that thought out of my head reminding myself that i'm nothing like him and never will be. 

Jake turns toward the car anger and frustration written all over his face before casually saying "Actually Aubre was just telling me she was about to call an uber to take her somewhere im sure you can be a good samaritan and drive her where she wants to go instead of her splashing out on an uber."  Colton eyes turned to slits before replying "I have to be at the gym i don't have time to be a personal chauffeur for your co-workers Jake especially her" 

A flash of hurt covers my face am i really that bad to be around maybe my dad was right i am an annoying whinny bitch. He must see the hurt on my face because he frustratingly shouts "Fine just get in i'll take you where you need to go"my whole body becomes tense from his tone of voice and i wince out of instinct which he must realise because he lowers and softens his voice and says "i'm sorry i didn't mean to scare you i'm just not in a good mood don't be scared of me i didn't mean to shout at you, if u tell me where you want to go ill take you"

I didn't particually want to get in the car with him but an uber would take twenty minutes to get here and its freezing outside so i slowly look at the floor and manage to get the courage to say "okay." Jake must realise my sudden discomfort because he turns to me and tells me i don't need to go with him if i don't want to but i tell him its okay and that i don't mind, after he gets his stuff out the car and we say our goodbyes i climb in the car and he heads inside the cafe.

As soon as i shut the car door i put my seat belt on and position my body so i'm lent right up against the car door as far away from colton as i could get which he obviously notices so it makes the atmosphere awkward. Colton asks me where i need to go and i mumble "the hospital"

He quickly becomes rigid and start rambling if i'm okay and whats wrong he even tried to lean over and put his hand on my forehead but i flinched so he quickly shifted his hand back to the steering wheel beginning to talk so fast i didn't understand a word he was saying. To stop his rambling i tell him that im fine and that im just going to see my dad, the change in his expression and body language makes it seem as if he was worried about me for a second.

He pulls out into the street and drives down the road silently before he breaks the silence asking me if i'm going to be warm enough in what i'm wearing, i look down seeing i'm only wearing a tatty old coat so thin it looks like i'm wearing a zip up jumper but i quietly say it'll be fine.

The car ride went by really fast with me starring out the window and Colton watching the road but every now and then glancing at me when he didn't think i noticed, i tried to keep mind away from him but my eyes always deceived me by watching his strong tattooed hands grip the steering wheel making me remember my dream from last night. I wonder what those could do to me what they would make me feel but then i remember how he spoke to Jake so i keep repeating in my head that hes a dick and not worth my time its not like he'd ever like me anyway i mean look at me.

When we arrive outside the hospital i go to quickly leave the car but Coltons voice stops me before i can. "Hey how are you getting back home"

"um im just going to call an uber to take me back to Pams when im finished here because thats where im staying at the moment" He turns towards me and says "I finish my workout at 12:30 how about i come and collect you from here at about 1" "sure uh okay" cockily he replies "I wasnt going to take no for an answer anyway" Before i could reply he starts the engine and heads off leaving me starring at the back of his car as he heads out the parking lot.

when i head into the hospital i give the receptionist my fathers name and she directs me to room 145 where my dad is peacefully sleeping with an iv sticking out of his arm giving him fluids. She tells me he should be awake within the next few hours so he should be awake before Colton gets here to pick me up.

Time flies by with me sat on the chair next to my dads hospital bed reading a Jane Austen novel when i look up the clock says its 12:45 sometimes when im reading i loose all track of time and am stuck in an imaginary world where life is perfect its why i love reading, its takes my mind away from my life and its addicting. When i look over at my dad he is starting to move his legs and his eyes are beginning to open. I deposit my book in the chair and walk over to his bed peering down at him.

I smile down at him thinking he'll be grateful to see me after nearly dying but instead his face twists with disgust. "Get away from me you stupid bitch" he slurs his words causing my eyes to swell with unshed tears "I hate you, you're the reason why im here and not with your mother not that you would care anyway you selfish bitch all you ever think about is yourself. Did you know i told your mother to get rid of you when i found out she was pregnant i hated you from the start you weren't even meant to be born you were meant to die and ive wished everyday since then that you would just die."  

Tears fall from my eyes like a never ending river my ears were ringing, my heartbeat was erratic as i stared at the man before me he was not my father he was a monster my father died the day my mother did i just didn't realise until just now. I run. I run so fast everything is a flash  i just need to get out of the hospital i need air i just need to be able to breathe. when i see the entrance door i run faster until the cold air hits my face, Colton is stood next to his car but i cant make it that far  tears running down my cheeks i fall to my knees screaming in emotional pain. The next thing i notice is two hand wrapping around me pulling me into their warm chest.