THE CURB (MATURE HARRY STYLES AU) #WATTYS2016

CHAPTER FIFTY-SIX.

-----------HARRY'S P.O.V------------------

I find Josh in the garden outside Liam's house. He's sitting on a small bench, staring into the space with a cigarette in his mouth.

I walk towards the bench and sit next to him, crossing my arms over my chest. Josh turns his head to spare me a glance before looking back ahead of him. He takes in a puff of smoke and then offers his cigarette to me.

I stare at the stick for a couple of seconds before letting out a heavy sigh and pushing his hand away while shaking my head, no.

"You know I don't smoke, bro." I tell him quietly and he shrugs, bringing it back to his own mouth and breathing in the cancerous substances.

I give him a look of disapproval, it's been years since he started smoking and even though I've tried so many times to convince him to stop taking the cancer into his lungs, he never listens. I open my mouth to advice him again but then decide to just ignore it this time, if he doesn't care about his health, I shouldn't either.

"So, what do you wanted to talk about?" I ask him, leaning against the bench as I stare at the side of his face.

Josh raises his eyebrows at my words as if he's just remembered the purpose of me being here. He takes in one long drag of his cigarette before throwing it on to the grass and stomping it with his foot. Then he turns to look at me, eyes watching me intently as he opens his mouth to talk.

"How are you?" He asks me, the question sounds very normal and genuine but I know what he means. He's asking me about my anger issues and depression.

"A lot better then before." I answer him very honestly. Ever since Stella came back, I've been better. At least I don't get the urge of killing someone.

"That's great." He says with a nod and I smile a little. It's because of him that I got her back. If he hadn't tracked her down, I'm not sure where I would've been standing right now.

"What about the pills, you've been taking them regularly, three times a day?" He questions and I nod my head hesitantly. I've never been a fan of those medicines. All they do is aggravate me, heighten my anger and that's it. I've never felt good after taking them and so I take them once a day only.

"Josh, you know I want to become normal again but.. I don't want to take those pills anymore." I tell him very honestly, from the very start, I've opened up to my big brother, the only family I have left. He's always been here for me, through thick and thin and I know that if there's anyone I can trust with all my heart and soul, it's no one other than my big bro.

I watch as he furrows his eyebrows at my words and inhale sharply. His face twists in anger and I already know that he didn't like what I've just said.

"Are you fucking nuts, Harry?" Josh snaps harshly and I just shrug my shoulders, looking away from him. I know where this conservation will go. He's gonna tell me all that I've been through the past few months and how hard it was for him to bring me back to sanity.

"What? Just because she's back, you think you're okay?" He questions me again and I clench my teeth at the mention of Stella. Why the fuck does he has to remind me of her running away? She's back, she loves me. That's all I need to keep in my mind. She loves me..

"I don't need a remainder of that, Josh." I tell him, taking in a deep breath to stay calm. I can not show him my anger,that'll only prove his point of me not being mentally normal.

He chuckles bitterly at my words before saying, "Well, I'm very sorry to bring the truth up, Harry but I think that's exactly what you need to be reminded of at the moment." I turn my head towards him, silently warning him to let it go but he just smiles bitterly and glares at me at the same time.