age difference

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thurdays, late night
12:32 am harlem

              (imagine its dark outside)

i walked up to my door and put the key in , i walked inside and loved the smell of my own home , i kicked my shoes off at the door and threw my purse and keys on the table not forgetting to set my alarm, i went into the kitchen pouring some henny in a wine glass and told alexa to play my favorite songs

I try to stay out of love 'cause I'd kill me a bitch
I'm just fuckin' and thuggin' and gettin' money to lit to commit
I got one ho ridin' my face another one ridin' my dick
Like I'm Santa Claus I'd check a nigga off of the list
I'm the nightmare before Christmas
Got a fish tank with no fishes
I was out in the deep ends and even Nemo couldn't find me
I ain't changed on nobody
They don't see me that I'm grindin'
Tryna have this nigga packed up and cremated by this Friday

i went to upstairs to my room and headed to my room

took my glass of henny to the head , i had a lot on my mind , i miss my family , my guys . it wasn't the same without them i haven't got a call from my dad in a month which wasn't like him i was kinda worried . but i knew he would call soon .

i headed to my shower and stripped from my clothes . i turned the hot water on and stepped in letting the hot water run down my body easing my mind . i had to get up at 10 in the morning to go to work . i was an pharmacist at the hospital, but that wasn't enough to cover my lifestyle , i was trapgodess nobody knew that i held shit down for my uncle when he passed . i kept that on the low because i felt like it was nobody business , i did ran the business but no one saw my face . the day i showed my face it would be me painting the whole city red about mine or my money .

turning the water off , i stepped out the shower grabbing my towel and heading to my room to lotion up not forgetting to brush my teeth and do my skin care . after handling my business i laid in my bed naked because baby i do not sleep in clothes i never have and i won't start today , i scrolled though my social media for a little before cutting my lamp out and going to sleep . i said a small prayer before drifting into a deep sleep

deep deep deep deep

thursday , april 21st 8:50 am                                     harlem

i was waken by my alarm . it took me a while to get up but when i did it was already 9am did my skin care , brush my teeth and headed to put my clothes on when my phone started ringing

bam - "hello" i said slightly irritated cause it's to early for anyone to be callin me

kash - dats how you keep up the phone ? get slapped

i gave a slight grin like she could see me

bam- what you want i'm going to work

kash - why you still workin like you need the money or sun

i rolled my eyes because she the only one who knew that i was the face behind half of the city drug supply

bam - man i ain't tryna hear that what you want df ?

i said as i was now fully dressed headed downstairs to get my packed lunch for work and a fruit bowl so i can head out the door

kash - are you still coming tomorrow i know how you like to change your mind

bam - i told you i was coming didn't i baby? okay den

i said as i headed out the door not forgetting to lock it behind me

bam- where my godbaby ?

kash- i just dropped him off with his ugly ass daddy , i'm finna go to the salon and do these few heads den go home you gone come over i miss dat

i laughed at her as i hopped in my car cranking it up she was tryna fuck me , we fucked often being the me and her were not dealing with anyone else , i loved having sex with her , i just hoped it never breaks us apart and i gotta kill her .

bam - i thought we was done with dat

i said just fucking with her

the line got quite

bam- hello df you not sayin shit—

kash - WHO DF said we was done fuc ya talkin bout yo son , shit finna get wicked stop fuckin playin w me on my son yo—

i hung up on her cause i ain't even tryna argue with her . i was 10 mins away from work , i looked at my tank and decided i fill it up when i get off tonight

i pulled in my job and prepared for this long day of work . the bitches here didn't like me , all the men who worked here wanted me and the patients loved me . i came here for one thing which was the money . i never gave a fuck about anything else

this is going to be a long day i said getting my belongings stepping out my car lockin my door .

bare with me guys , i type how i talk 😂😂 i'm from downsouth baby . i'm trying i promise tell me what you guys want and i got y'all