never realy alone (shinkamie story)

chapter 2 noted

Denki pov

It has been 3 days since Shinso joined our class. When we have class I can feel he is almost always staring at me. But whenever I look back he quickly looks away. So I am going to write him a note

note

hey Shinso

I can feel that you are staring at me.

so why is it?

do I have a spot on my face or something?

Pikachu

As soon as the note reaches him he turns bright red knowing he got caught. He wrote on the back of the little note I gave him and send it back my way. I was kinda scared to read it. But when I read it had the cutest message I have ever read.

Hi Pikachu

I am really sorry for staring.

It's not because there is anything wrong.

It's because you look perfect today.

Shinso

He really said I was perfect. Now it was my turn to turn bright red. He was the first person to ever say I was perfect and is was really sweet. But all I could think was what he would say if he knew how imperfect I was. I saw so many little things wrong with myself. I hated how I looked. From the outside, I looked like a boy. I wear a boys uniform and I always wear my binder. Nobody knows I am trans. I didn't tell anybody and I wasn't planning on it. None of the teachers know. My parents didn't accept me so I left home just before we got the dorm system. I lived on the street for about 4 weeks. My life was horrible that is why I try to always be happy and never to cry because it could always be worse. When I finally snapped out of my thoughts it was time for the next lesson.

Now I don't know how to act around Shinsou. He is still looking at me the whole entire time so I try to cover my chest with my arms to make sure he doesn't see anything. I don't mind him looking but it's making me really conscious about my body.

It's been 2 hours since the note. And I can stop thinking about what Shinsou would say if he knew. I think about if he would tell me I am ugly or if he would repeat all the things I already hear every day. Like how I am too loud, too happy en too energetic. When I am around my friends I act happy but I still get told I am too dumb and not good enough to be a hero. I can't help it that I short circuit. I always try to be the best version of myself . I really try.

But maybe that's not enough