never realy alone (shinkamie story)

chapter 4 cleaning the closet

Shinsou pov

I really enjoyed the movie with Denki and it was real cute when he was scared. He kept on crawling closer to me to the point where he was almost on my lap. I realised at the dinner table that there are a lot of "alphabet mafia" students in 1A. I knew of Jirou and Momo were a thing but Bakugou and Kirishima are new to me. Also Sero and Todoroki, I would have never thought they would be so perfect together. 

I am kinda jealous. I want what they have. And I want it to be with Denki. But I am not allowed to want things in my life. I was an accident, my parents didn't want me. I didn't have a nice childhood. But that's not my choice, but it is my fault. If I cant change myself I can't be with anybody. everybody will leave me in the end.

Denki pov

I can't stop thinking about our little moment in the projection room. I don't think he hates being so close to me. If I am speaking honestly I didn't hate being so close to him. He is really pretty and even tho he is kinda negative he is really adorable. But I don't know if he is even into guys and if he will even like me. Or what if he doesn't like me because I am trans. And what if I tell him and he spills it to everybody else. Then I will have to move dorms and I cant train with the guys anymore.  Wait I can't let my brain go to overdrive like this. I have to tell Kiri, he will know what to do and he will be there for me. I am sure.

a little later in front of Kirishima's dorm

Denki: Heey Kiri. I knock at the door but there is no answer

Denki: Kirishima are you there? I need to talk to you.

???: Fucking Pikachu FUCK OFF

Wait that is BakuHo!!!

Denki: Bakuho is that you. I need to talk to Kiri, it's important

Bakugou: NO fuck off we are studying

Denki: uhmmmm yeah I don't think so. but it is really important please let me talk to Kiri

Bakugou: Can't you just wait until tomorrow?

Denki: no it.. it can't. I start to cry (damn I didn't want to cry. why is bakugou making this so hard)

Bakugou: Why did you go silent? Did you give up?

Denki: "sniff" i..i.i... need to talk to Kiri "sniff"

Bakugou: are you crying. opens the door

I just run in and hug bakugou

Bakugou: HEEYY, let go your al snotty'

Denki: (doesn't let go) where is Kiri?

Bakugou: he is in the shower, he will be done soon.

Denki: oke.... can I wait here with you(still crying a little bit)

Bakugou: yeah, but wipe your nose oke

Denki: oke"sniff"

Bakugou: here ( he hands Denki a bottle of water and Kirishima's big Pikachu plushie.)

Denki: thanks bakumom.

Bakugou: I am not your mom.

5 min later after Kiri is done showering

Kiri: Bakugou?? Why did it sound like Kaminari was here? (then sees Denki with his Pikachu plush and sees his red eyes from crying)

Kiri: omg denki are you oke.... What happened... Bakugou what did you do!?

Bakugou: I didn't do shit.

Denki: He did nothing wrong... it's just I have to tell you something....

Kiri: What is is denks

Denki: Well ...I....I...

Bakugou: Spit it out already Pickachu.

Kiri: BAKUGOU, be nice.

Bakugou: oke i am sorry baby

Denki: ( i didn't hear bakugou call Kirishima baby because I was slowly having a panic attack)

Denki: I am... I am ... I... ammm

Kiri: ???

Denki: I am..... I am pansexual (hides face in plushy)

Kiri: oke so what?

Bakugou: was that all.... you can tell us. it's not like we are straight

Denki: I know. I saw you holding hands under the dinner table.

 Kiri: (blushes)

Bakugou: I knew that they would see

Denki: I also have something else to tell you.

Kiri: oke

Denki: I am a boy... b-

Bakugou: yeah we know

Kiri: Let him finish 

Denki: but I wasn't born a boy

Bakugou: (confused)

Kiri: so you mean...

Denki: I am trans. I was born in the body of a girl. but I am a boy

Kiri & Bakugou: (stay silend trying to think about what to say)

Denki: are you mad? 

Kiri: Omg Denki, no of course not.

Bakugou: (stays silent)

Denki: hey look did it. I shut up bakugou.

Bakugou: yeah...

Denki: (still crying a little)

Bakugou: ( leans towards Denki and gives him an awkward hug)

Kiri: ooo cuteee...

Bakugou: shut up shitty hair

this wasn't as hard as I thought it would be...