In Unsafe Hands

Chapter 14 Kind gestures

Hey ok so in this chapter there will be a flash back of Lillian cutting.So if you are sensitive to that kind of stuff I put in bold the beginning and end of the flash back so you can skip if you want to.Also there won't be any bonding in this chapter but the next so just wait (this is just kind of a filler) Anyways enjoy.

Lillian's POV

It had been days since Gaige had locked me in the basement.He would come and give me water and let me use the bathroom.He let me have two meals a day saying as part of my "punishment" I would miss a meal.Other that it wasn't that bad I was just becoming bored out of my mind.I had already tried to read some of the books but I just couldn't focus on them.

I couldn't focus in anything my mind was filled with so many question.Why did Gaige kidnap me?How does he know me?Will I be here for the rest of my life?What is he going to do with me?All these questions and more kept echoing in my head.

I let out a frustrated scream as I threw the book across the room.Running my hands through my hair I began pacing back and forth.I looked down at my arms.Both covered in scars from the times I would cut myself.I remembered the first time I did it.

Flash back

I ran to the bathroom as my brother chased me.Apparently one slap to my face wasn't enough.I slammed the door shut and locked it.He pounded on it yelling at me to come out which turned into apologies.I still didn't unlock it.He pounded one last time then walked away. I just sat on the lid of the toilet.

Authors Warning!!!Next scene involves some cutting skip if you think it may trigger or you are sensitive to violence!!!

I looked to my left where my dad's shaver sat next to it were spare razor blades.I grabbed one and turned it over in my hand.I had heard of people cutting themselves.I never truly understood why they did it.

Maybe they were just trying to know they could feel something other than this miserable numbness.I held the razor to my skin.I felt fear fill me as I dragged it over my wrist.Even though i was scared I did it again watching the blood drip down my arm.

End of flash back

I traced my scars with my fingers.I wondered if I had a razor in my hands right now if I would have the urge to cut.The last time I had cut had been a month.I had broken my record not really by choice but I was still a little proud.

I was smirking to myself when Gaige walked in.I tugged my torn sleeve back over my arm or at lest tried there really wasn't much of a sleeve left.He looked me up a down which made me feel a bit self conscious."Follow me" He said turing around and walking out the door.

We walked up stairs and into the bathroom."Stay here" He said walking out of the bathroom.He came carrying clothes and soap."I thought maybe you'd like to shower and get out of those old clothes.They're pretty dirty."He handed me the things then just stood there.

"Umm Gaige aren't you gonna let me shower?I can't really do that with you just standing there." I said looking at the floor while my face flushed with heat.

He looked like he came out of of a trance then he started blushing."Oh r-right sorry.I'll uh leave you to it then."He walked out and fumbled to close the door.Once he was out I locked the door.I checked to see if the window was locked.It wasn't but there were bars on the outside.Damn.

I fumbled with the shower trying to get it to a desired warmth.Once I got to the right temperature I stripped and hopped in.It felt heavenly scrubbing my sore scalp and removing the dirt from my skin.I stood in the shower a little longer than necessary enjoy the warmth and avoiding Gaige.

I stepped out and dried myself of with the towel he had left for me.I quick changed in to the clothes which we roughly my size.He had given me a sports bra which I was both embarrassed and thankful for.He had probably guessed my size because it a little too small for me but hell I was just grateful to have it.

The shirt was a mint and a longer crop top.There were shorts and he had actually given me shoes.There were grey toms .I dried my hair with the towel.I readied myself to walk back out to Gaige.I guessed he would probably lock me up back down in the basement.I opened the door and went into the kitchen to see Gaige with keys in his hand.

"Come on we're going out."He said walking to me."Wait what!!"I screeched."I said we are-"he stared to say slowly before I interpreted him."I heard what you said I'm just surprised you're letting me out."

"There's something I want to show you."He said grabbing my wrist.He pulled out a pair of hand cuffs and I groaned.He only chuckled at me as he snapped them on."Can't let you run away again and besides I think you're gonna like this."

He started unlocking the door."What exactly are we going to see?"I questioned as he grabbed my forearm guiding me to the SUV.

"It's a surprise now put this on."He said as he pulled out a blind fold."Oh hell no you ain't putting that thing on me."I said scooting farther away from him on the seat."Lillian come on let put this on or it'll ruin the surprise."He said his face turing stern then slightly softening"I won't hurt you I promise."

I hesitate not exactly trusting him.In the end he was the one in control and I would only make things harder on myself disagreeing with him."Fine put the damn blind fold on."He chuckled and placed it over my eyes."This better be worth it." I mumbled."Trust me it is."Gaige said as the car roared to life.