the love we're hoping for is dying

Chapter Fourteen - lock the door

Ophelias PoV

A few days has passed since Jake and Is conversation in the early hours and things between us both weren't 100%, Jake seemed flustered around me no matter what I did. I had apologised numerous times and yet almost everytime he responded the same way by saying 'don't worry Phe it was nothing' however, it doesn't seem like nothing.

I shook my head ridding my thoughts and clicked upload on my laptop, I haven't posted a video in a few weeks now and my fans are getting restless, I can't really blame them I have no form of schedule for them I just upload when I feel like it.

I left my laptop to finish uploading the video and headed for the bathroom for a shower, grabbing a couple of fresh towels from the cupboard on the way there.

Switching the shower on I waited for the water to turn warm whilst putting on one of my Spotify playlists with a selection of songs.

Stepping in I felt the soft beads of water cascade down my spiny back feeling relaxed almost instantly. There was something much more relaxing about a shower than a bath to me and I never could quite put my finger on the reason.

I hummed to myself as I stood there just letting the water wash over me the warmth spreading through my whole body.

All of a sudden the door jerked open to reveal a shocked looking Jake, Jake flushed a deep red as I screeched in surprise trying my hardest to cover myself up with what little I had to do so.

"Jake!!" I screamed at him gesturing at him to get out

"Shit! Sorry Phe!" Jake quickly looks away his cheeks flushing even darker if that was even humanly possible to do so.

"Jake I love you but GET OUT!" I shout at him once again, whilst hectically pointing at the bathroom door.

"Right! Shit sorry Phe, er yeah I'm sorry!" Jake cursed and stumbled over his words as he finally staggered out the door slamming it shut.

Breathing heavily, I place a hand over my rapidly beating heart whilst steading myself with my other hand on the railing, the only thing keeping me upright at this present time.

Shocked is all I could feel whilst repeating what had just happened in my head over and over again. I couldn't believe it, Jake had just walked in on me in the shower. How the hell I managed to forget to lock the door I could not seem to figure out, but I sure as hell knew I would never ever forget again.

Not really feeling relaxed anymore, I quickly showered, hopped out the shower and wrapped myself in a big, soft, Cotten towel and hurried to my bedroom. I slammed the door shut and leaned against it sliding down the door.

I couldn't believe it, perhaps some people wouldn't make a big deal over the fact that their roommate just walked in on them showering, but I can't even look myself in the mirror nevermind someone else looking! The thought of it made me cringe into next year. How could I let this happen, how can I ever leave my room again after this.

I heard pacing in the hall and a muttering.

"Stupid idiot! How did you not realise she was in the shower! Not a chance she'll talk to you now! You idiot Jake!" Jakes voice echoed through the hall as he grumbled to himself.

I was pleased that he felt like an idiot, but I still could not bring myself to look him in the eye for a very long time. Yes I fancy him, and I'm sure others would be pleased to know that they made they're roommate rather startled by their own nakedness but I am not other people! I was worried I could never face Jake again!

I wasn't one to be dramatic, but I suppose this is where that side of me would appear and I would go into freak out mode, hiding out in my room for hours at a time not wanting to interact with people.

I quiet knock came from the other side of my bedroom door causing my heart to beat faster.

"Phe? Are you in there? Can we talk? I'm really sorry" Jakes nervous, trembling voice spoke.

"I'd rather not talk about it please Jake" I rush out in one breath, not knowing if Jake even understood what I had just said.

"I know, but I can't cope with not talking to you for much longer, it's been tense the past few days. Please Phe?" Jake pleads with me.

"Oh alright" I sigh heavily picking myself up off the floor and sitting on the edge of my bed, making sure my towel is secure.

"You can come in" I spoke quietly, secretly hoping he didn't here me, I was wrong.

Jakes head peeped around the door and smiled nervously at me before pulling himself fully in my room and sitting himself next to me on the bed.

"It doesn't have to be awkward between us you know, we're friends we can just pretend it never happened" Jake spoke first fiddling with his hands in his lap.

"And it's not like you've got anything to be embarrassed about either" Jake continued, looking at me briefly before looking down at his lap again.

"What do you mean?" I ask, pushing for an answer from him, his face flushes red.

"I just mean that... You know you're pretty, but you know that right?" Jake spoke quietly eyeing me nervously his fingers notting together.

"Oh" I spoke surprised "Really?" I trembled with nerves staring at Jake with unease, my stomach notted together causing me to squirm in my seat from the uncomfortableness. Jake only shuffled in his seat edging closer to me.

"Well yeah I think so" Jake smiled at me warmly.

"Thanks" I spoke smoothly.

"So, are we ok now? You know after the Vik thing and the other thing?" Jake asks shakily.

"We're fine" I nodded and smiled at him.

"I think I'm going to head to bed, I'll see you in the morning Jake" I spoke suddenly, scurrying to my bedroom door, Jake looked at me and nodded lightly and offered a small smile.

Did Jake just tell me I'm pretty? What does that mean? Did he mean anything by it? Did I want it to mean anything? The questions wouldnt stop tumbling through my head. I found myself glued to the spot not knowing what to think or what to do. Sleep is what I need, deciding on that I change into my appropiate clothes and slipped into the freshly washed sheets on my bed and felt myself drift off immediately.