they come, they go

nightmare in disguise

I woke up in a hospital bed
Distorted & confused, "how did I get here?"
I opened my eyes to see my parents at the end
They told me I was in labor
My water broke on Christmas morning
"That can't be possible" I thought
But I felt strong kicks
I felt her pushing her way out
I look down to my stomach
Big and round, like a watermelon
I felt a rushing, overwhelming joy
It washed over me like adrenaline
All of my pain diminished so easily
All of those years I spent crying
It felt like at least this made up for all of it
Looking for a sign of hope
And there it was...
I never wanted anything more in my entire life

I opened my eyes again
This time, in a pitch black room
It took me a bit to have my heart broken again
A taunting nightmare disguised as a beautiful dream