MY: FnIL

04: Scenery

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Kim Taehyung

" On a path brimming with flowers, I see you today as well. Would you be able to be bottled within me?"

There are a lot of things that I tried to keep as a secret from other people, even to those that are very close to me. For the many years of my career as an idol and the years I lived with my six band members meant that my privacy was very limited. After spending my whole teenage years with my members, I know that they are all very trustworthy people. However, this kind of secret that I have kept hidden after all these years is something that I still get nervous about whenever the idea of telling them the truth crosses my mind, especially Yoongi Hyung, who is the main topic of this secret.

Falling in love with Yoongi Hyung is something that I had expected. Looking back on the time that the admiration that I had for him grew ever since we were trainees. At first, I only admired him for being such a talented and hard-working person to the point that he became one of my role models but that admiration grew into something more. I had only realized that I had fallen for my tiny Hyung recently, and it was the most satisfying and scariest moment at the same time because it meant that I was going to be keeping a huge secret from my members.

Knowing the world that we live in and the fear that Yoongi Hyung might only see me as his band member or a younger brother, I tried to suppress my feelings for him. I worked so hard to keep my emotions at bay, but there were many times that I slipped. Luckily, even if there were people who noticed or caught me, they did not say anything. Even my other members who obviously feel the same way as I do to our Yoongi Hyung.

I have fallen for Min Yoongi too deep, yet I made no plans of climbing back up from the deep and warm abyss that I have fallen into.

On a path brimming with flowers,

I see you today as well

Would you be able to be bottled within me

Every single day, as soon as I wake up to another day, I walk out of my room with a bottle in my hand, walking through the path brimming with flowers that lead me to Yoongi Hyung because I know that as soon as I see him, I would have to fill the empty bottle in my hand filled with my feelings for him.

If only I could. I would take all the bottles filled with the love that I have for him and show him what he is doing to me. My heart is overflowing, and sooner or later, there will be no bottles left for me to fill, and the world will flood with all the beautiful worlds that I would love to whisper to Yoongi Hyung's ear if only the world will let me.

In a park where the moon of early morning has passed,

I bottle my present feelings

This song moves towards you

I listen to the sound of the film

that reflected the night sky's moon

Yoongi Hyung, to me, is like a pretty pink flower in a garden. A flower that only blooms at night as the moon shines over the pretty little flower, it slowly blossoms and blooms, showing the world its beauty. But as soon as the sun takes its place in the sky, the flower shies away from the world and hides itself; that for me is Yoongi Hyung.

In a park where the moon of early morning has passed, with a bottle that I fill with my present feelings, I walk over to the pretty pink flower that shies away from the world with the song I am singing, bringing me towards the flower that represents my Yoongi Hyung. If only I could, I would pour my feelings around the flower for it to continue to grow. So I could show Yoongi Hyung that I will always surround him with my love neverending.

I still wonder wonder beautiful story

Still wonder wonder best part

I still wander wander next story

I want to make you mine

This story that I am telling the world, I still wonder the best part because every part is beautiful as long as I have Yoongi Hyung. The book of my life plastered with his name on every page is a dream come true. I will always wonder, in the following story that I will tell the world, will I ever make him mine?

Yoongi Hyung, will I be able to make you mine?

My heart regrets missing

the image of that moment of time

Due to that regret, I wish for

that moment to exist once more

I had made many memories with Yoongi Hyung; after spending many years with him, there are many moments that I wish to relive because they are the moments that I had spent with him. I treasure all the moments that I have with those people who are close to me, but I treasure those moments more where Yoongi Hyung was by my side.

My heart will always be missing those images of the moments that I had spent with him at those times. Because of those regrets, I wish for the universe to give me another chance to relive those moments and for them to exist once more.

Even if I could only relive them in my dreams.

I'll be sure to make a light by

gathering each and every fragment of the moonlight,

so please come to me

in a manner like yesterday

As Yoongi Hyung's pretty, pink flower only blooms under the bright moonlight, I will be sure to make a light by gathering each and every fragment of the moonlight every night, so his flower could bloom and blossom every time I visit and watch the pretty, pink flower in awe and admiration.

A pretty, pink flower like Yoongi Hyung is a scene I wish to relive over and over again.

If you depart, having left your footprints behind,

I'll stand watchful on the path you came

I'll preserve it in black and white

So, even if the night finally comes to a close, I will watch Yoongi Hyung and stand guard on the path brimming with flowers that he came from, leaving footprints behind; I will be there waiting and waiting for him to come back every night.

A scenery I would love to see every single night and every single day.

"I still wander wander next story. I want to make you mine, Yoongi Hyung."