Two Sides Of Car'Lisa

All the Loses

As angry as I was I couldn't even stand up as I walked to the car. I drove off real fast as I stopped by my aunt house. It looked so diffrent from when I was here. It was dark , and spooky. I open the half opened front door all the way . I seen glass everywhere and dishes piled up and clothes riped up thrown all over the sofa .
I got scared as I starting running around the house . "Aunty! Aunty! Answer me please! " I yelled as I started crying .
I ran in one of the bathrooms as I seen her on the floor makeup smeared all on her face and all. She had a needle sticking up her arm. I ran and took it from her. "Aunty please talk to me , I'm here now talk to me. I'm sorry for everything I ever did to you.!"
She never blinked she just staired in a blank space as she finally turned her stiff head . She held her hand out to hold mine as I seen a tear drop.
I held her hand as I gave her a huge hug. She tried to talk but no words came out. I got up an put some water on her face she was sweating badly.
"She is gone! SHE IS GONE!" she just started yelling and going crazy as if she was drowning and just got the water coughed out of her system.
My eyes went huge and I got up and flung to the wall in nervousness .
"Who is gone ? who is gone Aunty !" I yelled.
"Your mother. She is gone !"
"Stop playing Aunty stop playing !"
My Aunty flew to the floor as she just started scratching and going crazy.
That's when I knew it was real. My mom is dead . I fell to my knees as I started yelling.
"Noooo! Oh my god! Nooo! Momma! Momma! "
I got up couldn't hardly breath as I started punching the walls and tears kept coming faster then a flowing river.
That's when I curled up like a baby on the floor and just laid there just like my aunt and there was silence.

It was 1 pm the next day. I woke up hating that the sun was in my face . I smelled cooking coming from the kitchen ,.
I walked in and sat on a stool. "hey Aunty are you okay?"
"Yeaa Rosa , It happens every night here. I think about your momma. And most of all you. I'm so glad your back with me baby,!"
"Not quite I'm living with a friend but I promise I'll check up on you from Time to time . when did u find out about momma death?"
"A week ago. They said the alcohol shattered her liver ." My Aunty said grabbing her heroin needle off the counter.
I got up and grabbed my stuff.
"I can't stay here in this filth ! No ! And I can't deal with that bullshit every night Aunty get your life back together"
I walked back out the house and hopped in the car.
I felt like it was a bad timing coming back . That was the worse night ever an my mind is Fuxked up to be honest.