One step is all it takes
One more pill is all it takes
One bag is all it takes
One razor is all it takes
It's not your choice
It's your mind's choice
I don't believe in God
I don't believe in the afterlife
I don't believe in soulmates
Or true happiness
Or promises
But I believe in an ending
A place where one will rest forever
A place where I feel no sadness nor comfort
One thing I'd take to death
One thing that's kept me from death
One thing that's kept most strayed far from death
Remembrance
Will you remember me?
Will you laugh again
Smile,
Breathe
See
Hear
Walk
Run
Will you be able to live without me?
When will you be able to live without me?
Don't.
Don't live without me
Don't leave me
If life is one thing, it is being a remembrance
And if I can not achieve that
Then life is not important
I will walk through a beautiful garden of blue roses
And if in the end, I can achieve one thing
If it is not to be a remembrance
Then can it be another life?
If death themselves are kind enough
Then give me one I can be proud of
Give me scars
Give me pain
Give me war
Vengeance
Hate
But in the end
Let me remember something I never got to discover in life
Not love
Not staying true to oneself
But I beg of you so
Let it be the only person needed to remember me
Is me
Let me die saving someone
Let me die saving the world
Make me die doing something that will make me be proud of myself
Make me achieve something that will let me rest in peace
Don't make me overdose
Nor jump
Nor suffocate
Nor bleed out
Let me die in any painful way possible just make me happy by saving one
That is if the blue roses listen to me
That is if there even ever was another life
"Because even though I do not believe in God, nor the afterlife, I still hope"
So when I die
When I die the most pitiful and selfish way
Maybe they will remember me
Maybe they will forget me
I hope not
That is the most selfish part
So, let me live again
Give me pain
Give me a reason to live
Give me a way out of life again
But this time make it more worth dying for
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My poems and short stories
PoesíaA book of poems/short stories I've made in my spare time to express and cope with my depression and anxiety. A lot of them are sad and deal with s**cidal ideations and attempts that glorify it. I also wrote most of these while I was in a really dark...
