Chuuya's Discovery

Chapter 2/4 : Attachment

 "Stay away from me..." Wistfully Dazai said. His entire being is under the melancholic state but trying his best to maintain his normal self despite being exposed entirely in front of Chuuya which is not cleaning his body with a wet towel, treating his wounds and bruises.

Trying not to tremble.

Trying to hold his tears.

He used to have no shame but now it seems different.

Chuuya just discovered his deepest secret and he is not prepared for it.

"Stop fidgeting. I know it hurts a little but try not to move that much." Chuuya said as calmly as possible, he is controlling himself. Keeping his cool to avoid the further wrath in his heart. He is still mad, mad at Mori for what he has done to his partner, Dazai at the same time he is so worried at the brunet. Conflicting emotions are circulating within him, too complicated to comprehend.

"I don't need your assistance, so could you please stop touching me." Dazai insisted, and the ginger could sense the brunet's agony in his words. The ginger just let out a sigh as he continues to treat the injuries of the other teen. The brunet, unable to feel the pain of the antiseptics but is very uncomfortable with the ginger's touch because it gives him this "sybaritic" yet depressing sensation plus the fact that-

He gets turned on by Chuuya's touch.

Making him realize that he really has no shame.

Affected by those slender fingers lingering, treating his wounds with such care and tenderness, sending butterflies down through his stomach. His soul is shivering between the feeling of delight and agony. Those ocean blue eyes, looking at him, showing pure concern.

So alluring, so destructing.

Dazai knows it. He could easily sense if someone is staring at him with such a look, like he is going to get devoured but Chuuya's stare is different. It is warm and empathetic and he wants to get consumed by it. He doesn't get used to it because he grew up adjusting to those people who only see him as a piece of meat. After all, he once became a child prostitute before Mori took him in his care, making Dazai his toy and awakening his ability-

enhancing his potential.

Being a subject in his inhuman experiments.

Turning him into a beast, just like Mori Ougai himself.

Dazai knew that despite Chuuya's concern, the ginger also is magnetize by his charm

Truth to be told, Chuuya is secretly admiring how beautiful Dazai is. Not lustfully, just pure adoration.

Those scars and wounds don't degrade how perfect he is.

Those bruises are like decoration on his pale skin.

Although he has no intention to take advantage of the wounded teen, he is not like those carnal mongrels who devour Dazai down and throw it away afterwards. Dismissing his fantasy,that little temptation of him. Chuuya, wants to have a taste of course, he will not deny it but at the same time, he also wants to protect Dazai, keep him safe for the rest of his life. To make him smile and to stop him from hurting himself.

He is not being possessive; he is simply being protective.

Noticing the ribs, such a skinny body frame which is almost visible. Signifying the brunet doesn't get any healthy meal or perhaps he is anorexic, he frowns.

Why does Chuuya care for him this much though?

Is it out of his humanity?

Or merely because it's the right thing to do?