A Cure for Insomnia (Proxy x Reader slowburn)

Secrets

Your bags were jumping and sliding around in the backof Madeline's rusty pickup truck. She had been kind enough to offeryou a ride up to the lodge when she stopped by the shop earlier.

Madeline had seen the sour look Nate kept sending youand how you were intentionally not looking over towards the soon tobe graying young man. Not one to beat around the bush she asked whatwas up, mam bear mode peeking through.

Nate was just being a dick to you and saying you had tostay with the Cowells longer than what had originally been agreed to.Big Jo seemed fine about letting you go back home now, even with yourresolve set to continue hanging out with Toby. But Nate was trying toput a tight leash on you since you "wouldn't listen to reason" -so he said.

Even with security at the cottage updated Nate stillthought it best to keep you with them if you were planning to stillinteract with Toby. More than likely he was trying to make thatharder for you to do since staying with them would definitely make iteasier for him to keep track of you.

The thought alone set shivers down your spine. Like aconstrictor slithering up your back to rest around your neck and dowhat it does best.

It had been really hard to breathe these last few days.

But all Madeline needed to hear was "Nate" and"being a dick" before she said she'd take you herself. Therebyending the conversation and silent argument in the shop, as she spunon her heel stating when she'd pick you up later.

Nate hadn't been too happy about the exchange but hecould suck your dick. He's been annoying you with all this Tobybullshit and doesn't get to tell you what he thinks right now.

The drive up is silent, but that comfortable kind ofsilence between two old friends who don't ever really have a need totalk to hang out. It's nice because it gives you tons of time tothink about just what you're about to do.

Going over several scripts all at once in your head.

You want to talk to Toby. You still haven't read thatfile but it just doesn't sit right with you that it was ever evengiven to you in the first place. Toby being completely unaware of thetotal breech of privacy makes your stomach flip just like your bagsin the back right now. It's not like you ever asked for the detailedlife file but at the same time it feels wrong not to let Toby knowtht something like that even exists for him. His past being dug backup all without his knowledge or consent. And now here you were aboutto lay it right down in front of him.

Was this the right move? You're the one bringing it tohis attention, if it's something that will mess him up it'll be yourfault that he's upset. Jo and Nate may have gotten the informationbut you still count yourself as being a complacent party to all ofthis.

Your stomach feels like it's on a drop tower as itsinks further into a pit of guilt.

You feel like the scum of the Earth right now.Hopefully he isn't too upset.

Seeing your downcast eyes, you were a lot moreexpressive than you ever really realized, Madeline pipes up, "Yougon' be ok there sport?"