Never yours|| Oscar "spooky" Diaz

Veinticinco

"Are you mad?" I laid next to Oscar, staring up at the ceiling and picking at my fingers.

"No." He grunted, his eyes still closed.

He hadn't really talked to me since our "argument" earlier just before my mom came and everybody else came.

Earlier

"Why didn't you tell me Bianca." I got off of his lap and he stood up.

"Because you...I didnt know if I should've."

"What...what do you mean you didnt know. The whole fucking point of me being around was to protect you!" He didn't yell but I could tell he wanted to.

"Bruiser died after I told him and you think I wanted to watch that happen again? I was 12. What do you expect a 12 year old girl to do?" He looked down at me.

He sighed, kissed my forehead and began to walk off.

"Where are you going?"

"You're mom will be here soon, I'll be back." With that he left.

Now

"Oscar." I rolled on top of him, he kept his eyes closed. "Will you talk to me please" I plucked his forehead and he opened his eyes calmly.

"What Bianca."

I stared down at him "I love you."

He looked at me silently before pecking my lips. "I love you too." He closed his eyes again.

I plopped my head on his chest.

"Why won't you talk to me?"

"I just did."

"You know that's not what I meant."

"What do you want me to say Bianca?"

I looked at him and saw him staring down at me. "I want you to speak your mind."

"Fine." He grunted and held onto my waist, sitting me up with him. "I'm upset at you, but you were young. I wish you would've told me so I could've stopped this shit from happening that's happening now. I wish you never were touched in that way. I'm mad at him for hurting you like that and to be very honest with you B I want to kill him. To be more honest with you B I'm going to kill him." His tone stayed leveled and his face stayed straight.

"Can I sleep now?" I nodded and he slid back down, wrapping his arms around my body and holding me tightly.

"I want to kill him too."

"I know."

...

"Have you been eating" i sighed as my mamá continued to inspect my body.

"Yes mamá, you saw me yesterday."

"You might not have eaten after I left." I held her hand and smiled softly at her.

"I'm ok mommy." She sighed and pulled me into a hug.

"I know you are. I just feel so guilty for not taking care of you."

"Don't, it's not your fault." She sighed and patted my back before letting me go.

"Your boss isn't being hard on you for not showing up is he?" I shook my head and she nodded.

"Good, I know his mother." I laughed and she smiled at me before walking into the kitchen. "So how's Oscar?" I nodded.

"He's ok I think. We're better now. He sleeps with me." She eyed me and I sighed. "Not like that mamá...kind of like that."

"Be safe mi amor." I nodded and softly smiled.

"I will."

"Hermoooossaa!" I looked towards the door where Imani was standing with a wide smile on her face and Thalia crushing a cigarette under her foot.

"Hey Mani, Thalia." Thalia sighed before pushing past Imani and leaning on me.

"Imani is so exhausting." I giggled and patted her back.

"Shut up man, you made my pops car smell like cigarettes." Imani scoffed making Thalia roll her eyes.

"Hey Mrs. M." My mom waved back at her, knife in hand. "Where's the baldi?" I shrugged.

"What happened?" I shrugged again.

"You-" the door slammed behind us making all of our attention go towards it.

"Yo spooks where you been?" Imani joked.

Oscar was breathing heavy as he stomped past us.

"What the...hell?" Imani sighed.

I walked into the back and into Oscars room.

"You ok? What's wrong?" I stood in front of him and put my hands on his sides.

"He's awake."

"Who?"

"We made sure he wouldn't fucking wake up but he's awake." I tried to keep my hands from shaking. Me being panicked wasn't going to help.

"I'm not doing this Bianca. I'm not letting him walk out of that fucking hospital after what he did to you! I'll go to fucking prison if I have to, this shits not happening." He chuckled lightly as if he was going crazy.

I put my hands on his face and made him look at me. "Hey, Oscar." His breathing slowed slightly, making me calm down a little.

"You're not going to prison. You going to prison is not going to make me feel better. Him going to prison will." I wrapped my arms around him and put my head on his chest.

"I'm sorry I didn't kill him when I had the chance."

"I'm glad you didn't." I rubbed his back and he rested his chin on my head.

"Bianca." I hummed and looked up at him. "You're the best thing in my life. I love you so much it scares me." I smiled softly.

"What'd you have to be so cute for." I reached up and pressed my lips onto his. "I love you too." I mumbled through the kiss.

He pulled away and took a deep breath. "You're making me a softee man." I laughed and pecked his lips.

"I don't think that's possible. I have to go back now." He nodded and I held his hand as we walked back out into the living room.

"Baldy and the beauty, did you release your e n e r g y?" Thalia smirked making me roll my eyes.

"We didn't do anything perv."

"That's what I tell my dad when Kaylin leaves, def not believing you." I giggled and Oscar wrapped his arms around my waist.

I missed this.