Behind the scenes

Chapter 1

The show was coming to an end and it felt so surreal, looking around at her surroundings Shehnaaz felt a heightened sense of anxiety and uncertainty gnawed at her. Her only sense of relief came when Salman sir raised Sidharth's hand in the air announcing his win to the whole world. She felt overwhelmed with tears of happiness and quickly hugged Rita maa who was sitting right in front of her before dashing towards the stage to meet Sidharth. Sidharth saw her rushing towards the stage with a twinkle in his eyes and a joyful smile. She quickly flung herself onto him, and him being used to her behaviour quickly steadied her with a reassuring hand on her waist letting her kiss his cheek and reciprocating the gesture. She quietly whispered in his ear, " Congratulations Kullu !!!!!! I'm so happy for you. Jaane se pehle ek baar please mere se mil liyo, mujhe andar se ajeeb sa lag raha hai." Looking at him with nervousness in her eyes. Before he could reply, a cough from Salman sir interrupted them. She quickly rushed to him to collect the check he was offering to her and timidly hugged him. When she turned around she saw Sidharth being escorted off the stage by a flurry of people, probably to attend the press conference and whatnot.

Seeing him walk away again heightened her sense of anxiety and she looked around for shehbaaz in the crowd, spotting him doing the same on the other end of the stage. She quickly rushed to him and hugged him tightly, salvaging the feeling of comfort her brother's presence brought. Shehbaaz being aware of his sister's nature ushered her out of the area and towards her vanity van. He asked her to sit inside and relax while he called upon their mother who was desperate to talk to shehnaaz properly and subsequently went in search for Sidharth who he knew would be able to calm his sister down properly.

It took him half an hour to track down Sidharth and he was still surrounded by people asking for pictures and autographs. When he went nearer he realized that one of those people was his father! Hayee he thought and went near him when he was clicking his picture with Sidharth. Sidharth spotted shehbaaz out of the corner of his eye and went near him. Shehbaaz grasped this opportunity to firstly hug him and congratulate him on the win and secondly, tell him about shehnaaz. On her mention his eyes twinkled, and he nodded reassuringly at him when he asked him to meet her in her van.

Meanwhile, in the van shehnaaz was feeling slightly better after talking to her mother for an hour and crying in her arms since she missed her so much. Her mother had to leave unfortunately to locate her father and ask him to take her home since it was pretty late in the night. The moment she was left alone she again started feeling overwhelmed with the uncertainty of tomorrow. Just as she was on the verge of a panic attack she heard someone open the door of her van. Sidharth stood there with a joyous smile which quickly turned into a concerned frown when he saw her on the verge of tears. She quickly rushed to him and flung herself onto him snuggling her face near his heart. He protectively held her near his chest and asked, " Abey moti kya hua ? Tereko kisi ne kuch bola kya ?? tu itni pareshan kyun hai ??". She simply glanced at him with a slight tear in her eye which he wiped away with her thumb.

He had realized after staying her for 4 months that she was overwhelmed and confused and needed him for reassurance. This had happened a few times in the Bigg Boss house late in the night where she had a similar expression on her face after a particularly bad day and he would snuggle her in his arms and whisper words of encouragement as well as answer all her questions to clear away her doubts and calm her mind. He quickly relocated to the couch nearby while holding her in his arms and started rubbing his palms up and down her arms to calm her and focused on her face to gauge her reaction.

" Sidharthhhhh" shehnaaz wailed while snuggling further into his chest "mujhe nahi pata main kyun aisa feel kar rahi hu ! Maine tera winning day kharab kar diya na? Sorry. Mujhe samaj nahi ahh raha main kya karu." Sidharth made her face him and quickly wiped the tears streaming down her face. He then cupped her cheeks in his hands and said, " Terko bahar ahh ke ajeeb lag raha hai na ?" she nodded cutely at his statement, " Koi nahi mera bacha yeh sabke saath hota hai, hum use closed environment mein 4 months rahe hai. Obviously bahar ahh ke ajeeb toh lagegana ! Tu kyun chinta kar rahi hai sab theek ho jayega. Abhi tereko teri mom aur shehbaaz se milke Khushi hui na ?" she again nodded cutely in his hands. "Toh bas acchi cheezo pe focus kar. Aur main hu na tere saath kuch hoga joh tujhe nahi accha lagega toh mujhse puch liyo mein handle kar lunga." At this more tears gathered in her eyes and she shaked her head.

Perplexed Sidharth asked, " Tu na kyun kar rahi hai ? Tujhe nahi chahiye meri help ? Tujhe thoda sa space chaiye toh mujhe bata no problem." This statement made shehnaaz panic and crawl into his lap earning an oof! from Sidharth. " Tu chala jayega mujhe chodh kar" she wailed loudly " Main phir kya karu ? Tu hi mujhe samajta hai, baaki sab mera maazak banate hai pata hai. Kehte hai dumb hai." She hiccupped and continued, " Tujhe pata hai ek tu hi hai joh mere doubts pyaar se clear karta hai, tu mujhe datata bhi hai par tabhi mujhe pata hai ki tujhe mujhpe sharam nahi aati tu bas meri chinta karta hai isliye yeh sab karta hai. Main Bollywood mein bhi kisiko nahi janti sab bohot confusing Hai. Please mujhe mat chodh." She continued to mumble the last line while hiding in Sidharth's chest wrapping her arms around his torso.

Sidharth finally understood the real cause of the problem, Shehnaaz was afraid of losing him and this was causing her stress and anxiety, he had seen a glimpse of her anxiety right before the finale began when she fought with him. He quickly wrapped his arms tightly around her and laid his head on the top of her head. He patiently held her until she somewhat calmed down from her outburst and then quietly whispered in her ears " Main kahin nahi jaa raha tujhe chodh kar meri jaan. Dekh abhi bhi tere saath hi toh hu main. Aur kisne kahan tu dumb hai ? Main muh todh dunga uska. Tujhe kuch cheeze late samajh mein aati hai toh kya hua? Kitne log tujhe pyaar karte hai na tabhi toh tu journey mein bhi itna aage badhi." This made her look up and smile at him. Seeing the smile on her face made Sidharth realize how much it pains him when she is sad. He added with a smile " Aur waise bhi tu itni honest hai, cute hai, pyaari hai, interesting hai " accompanying each praise with tickles on her waist making her laugh happily while squirming in his lap.

After she calmed down she cupped his face in her hands " Promise kar tu mujhe kabhi nahi chodega? Meri hamesha care karega?" he smiled widely and replied " I promise baby. I will always be there for you no matter what." After hearing this shehnaaz finally felt the ache in her chest disappear and she started feeling like her normal happy self again. " accha eyes close kar !" "nahi baby mujhe pata hai tu mere muh pe lipstick laga degi abhi mat kar na yaar" he protested. " Please Sidharthhhhh tujhe meri kasam" she added well versed with the fact that he cannot deny her now. He reluctantly closed his eyes and braced himself for the onslaught of kisses from his moti. But to his utter surprise he felt her slightly press her lips to his making him open his eyes abruptly and grasp her arms. Shehnaaz reluctantly pulled away while glancing at him from under her lashes fearing his anger.

Her fears were misplaced however since he quickly crashed his lips back onto hers and kissed her with all the passion and love he could muster. Sidharth quickly dominated the kiss and pulled her closer to himself through her waist. Shehnaaz felt such paramount happiness while responding to his kisses and she quickly wound her arms around his neck massaging the back of his head unconsciously. After parting from each other for some air, Sidharth started placing kisses along her neck making her moan slightly while tilting her head back for better access. When he reached the base of her throat he started sucking a hickey on her neck, too lost to realize the consequences of the move. Feeling the slight burn of the hickey spurred shehnaaz to remove his jacket and open the buttons of his shirt while he was focusing on her neck and run her hands across his broad back, enjoying the feeling of his muscles. she unconsciously started grinding herself on his lap unable to control her urges any longer.

Feeling the delicious friction Sidharth slammed his head back letting out a breathy "fuck!" before responding to her ministrations in the earnest too lost in his pleasure to care. And frankly after controlling his urges near shehnaaz for months he couldn't stop even if he wanted to. He raised his hands and cupped her breasts roughly enjoying the feel of them in his hands and again resumed kissing her languidly savoring each moment. Shehnaaz quickly undid the dori of her suit and took one of Sidharth's hands that was on her breast near the zip on her back silently urging him to lower down the zip. Sidharth quickly responded and pulled down the zipper at an astonishing pace before pulling down the fabric till her waist all the while continuing to kiss her. Sidharth broke away from the kiss before fixating his eyes on her curvy figure focusing on her plentiful bosom, she was utterly breath taking and Sidharth could do nothing but stare at her. Shehnaaz felt conscious on the other hand, remembering all the comments on her weight. She slowly started bringing her hands up to cover herself but before she could do so completely, Sidharth caught hold of her wrists pinning her hands behind her back making her push herself more into him. " Why are you hiding from me baby? Tu kehti hai na ki main tera hu ? Toh tu bhi sirf meri hai aur tujhe dekhne ka pura haq hai mujhe. Sirf. Mujhe." Asserting the last two words with harsh thrusts of his hips against her core making her gasp in pleasure. Sidharth couldn't control his possessive and protective nature when it came to shehnaaz and this was a completely new side of him that he hadn't experienced before. He again started mouthing at the base of her throat while moving downwards to her breasts all the while grinding furiously against her unable to stop herself. Shehnaaz felt blissfully content and threw her head back on the onslaught of pleasure letting out tiny whimpers and moans. Sidharth had unconsciously left several hickeys on her cleavage before he started mouthing on her nipples alternating between biting and sucking them. Both were close to climax before a knock on the door of the van interrupted them. " Sidharth aur kitni der baat karoge tum dono. Tere kehne pe maine sabko keh diya hai ki aap after party ke liye nikal gaye ho." Shouted shehbaaz from the other end of the door. Sidharth thanked the heavens that he had made the wise decision to lock the door before coming inside. Startled and embarrassed shehnaaz had hidden herself in his arms. Sidharth took a deep breath before wrapping his arms around her and answering shehbaaz " Sab sorted hai shehbaaz. Tum ek kaam karo after party ke liye nikal jaa. Main sana ko leke aata hu. Aur please jaane se pehle meri stylist ko bol de ki woh mere party ke kapade door pe hang kar de. Main iske bathroom mein change karlunga."

Shehbaaz responded in the affirmative and went away. Sidharth again took a deep breath trying to calm himself down while squeezing sana in his arms. After a few moments he pecked her forehead and asked her to face him. She automatically responded to his requests and looked at him, she was a sight to behold he thought with her rosy cheeks, smudged lipstick and hair and her porcelain skin decorated with a number of his hickeys. He smirked at her " Ab toh yakin ho gaya ki main kahin nahi jaa raha gadhi. Ab tujhe mujhe jehlna hoga." She giggled cutely at his statement smiling brightly at him. " Chal ab bathroom mein jaa kar ready ho jaa, hume after party attend karni padegi na. Main tab tak apne kapade le ata hu. Okay, baby ?" "Okay Kullu !" she responded cutely while clapping her hands together before hopping off his lap and making her way to the bathroom to change. Sidharth quickly went to the front door of the van and cautiously opened it, thankful that the media had left and quickly took his clothes that were hanging from the door before locking it.

He turned around just as shehnaaz saw the mirror for the first time after their make-out session after coming from the bathroom. Her eyes widened in alarm, her neck and cleavage was filled with numerous hickeys and love bites. " Hayeeee kutte yeh tune kya kiya ab main party mein kaise jaun ????!!!!" she exclaimed loudly. He couldn't contain his gleeful expression at the site of shehnaaz covered in HIS marks all over. He came behind her so that both of them were facing the mirror and wrapped his arms around her shoulders pulling her into him. " Kyun tujhe mere marks pasand nahi aye darling ? Are you concerned about one of your boyfriends finding our about them ?" he asked while tightening his hold on her and making eye contact through the mirror. Shehnaaz knew if she even jokingly said yes he would get mad at her and she would have to convince him AGAIN. " Of course mujhe inse koi problem nahi hai ! Par mein ab koi dress nahi pehen sakti kutte ! Itne saare hai ki makeup se bhi cover nahi honge! Media wale kya kya baatein karenge."

" Toh dress mat pehen, simple. Tere pass koi turtleneck hai toh woh aur ek jeans pehen le. Main bhi apni black wali turtle neck pehen raha hu." At the mention of wearing similar clothes, shehnaaz immediately brightened up. She quickly nodded before going to change asking Sidharth to do the same. Once both of them were dressed properly they quickly made their way to the after-party at Salman sir's house.