That night

Lonely

The next few weeks have been horrible, it's been about a month and a half since Harry...well... I haven't actually accepted it yet but in the back of my mind I know exactly what happened.

After the boys and Rachel found me half dead in the back of an alley I explained to them what happened. I decided seeing them reminded me of him far to much and since Rachel is officially a vampire I can't see her to often either. the only person I'm still in contact with is kasie.

It's strange how people say that when your sad you eat ice cream, chocolates and pretty much do nothing but cry. I don't do any of that, other than the crying part, but mostly I just sit out side and go to my classes. Foods that I used to love have no taste and I'm never really hungry at all. I eat enough to stay alive, I'm not gonna starve myself over it but I usually have to force myself to swallow whatever I chose to eat.

I don't put makeup on much anymore cause I know that by breakfast it will be smeared acrossed my face with tears anyways. I mean, yeah, life kinda sucks right now but I'm also not gonna be "over dramatic" and kill myself or something. I'll just see how it plays out.

Right now I'm headed to the courtyard to meet kasie for lunch. We both have the same class after so I'm with her most of the day.

"Maddie!!" Before I can turn around I feel two arms wrap around me, giving me a hug from behind. It's not like she heavy or anything so I just hugged her back best I could until we let go and she walked next to me, laughing like the happy girl she is.

"Hey! What's up!"

"I hope you don't mind that I came early, now that me and Rachel don't hangout anymore I got a new roommate"

"And?"

"Eh, she's not all bad. I mean she's a little annoying but we find ways to manage. don't tell her I said that" she rushed out the last words like she wanted to make sure is keep it secret.

"Do you really think if tell someone that, even after all we've been through?" She smiles and smacks her forehead. while I giggle at her foolishness.

"Good point, guess I didn't think of that." We walk in silence for a couple seconds remembering the history I had just brought back by saying those few words. I look to my right as I realize her smile had faded and she's in deep thought.

"Kasie, it's okay!" I try and reassure her even though we both know in not a very good liar. "It's all in the past! Just focus on the present okay?"

"I guess so, but just one question? "

I'm hesitant, the sound of her voice had me preparing for what I was about to answer. "Sure, why not"

"You know how, that day. you were in the kitchen and you, ya know..."

"No Kasie, I haven't tried to kill myself I already told you my reason for trying that in the first place, I-"

" I know I know, you didn't want Brad to hurt you or harry" The sound of his voice was like a knife being stuck into my heart, but Harry's name was worse, his name twisted the knife that was already placed into my heart. metaphorically (obviously...sorta). She must have noticed because she stopped walking and grabbed my hand.

"Maddie, your gonna get over him. I promise" I stuck to those words, keeping them as my life line because at this moment, they were all I had.

<HARRYS POV>

(Flashback)
I watched as she was walked safely back into her dorm by Liam. I waited for hours until Liam emerged from the house, his eyes were dark and red. I mean around his eyes, as he came closer i could clearly see that he was crying.

"Liam!" He head shot over to where I was, and ran to me. Then he did the most unusual thing he has ever done, he engulfed me in a gigantic hug. "dude!! What the hell?!"

"You-your, what the fuck?! Your supposed to be dead!!!" Well, that could be a reason he's hugging me. "you gotta go tell Maddie, she's going crazy!!! She broken two lights, thrown three picture frames, smashed anything that reminds her of you, and now she's sitting in her room crying in your T-shirt."

"That's...awful..I-um"

"I wasn't finished, she's doing all this whole being both mentally and physically dying. From the look of her, she shouldn't be able to walk."

"You can't tell her I'm here."

"And why the hell not?! You and her should both be driven to the hospital."

"Why me?"

"Did you really not notice? Look down" I peek at my shirt below me, noticing a huge gash in my side and multiple bones poking out where they shouldn't be. They were numb before, but I feel them now.

"FUCK! Dude!! Shit!" I pull of my shirt inspecting myself further.

"No wonder she thought you were dead."

"I gotta go."

"Wait, what about Maddie?!"

"Look, you have to believe me. I REALLY love her, like more than anything."

"I can tell, you don't talk about anything like you do her."

"That's why I can't tell her I'm alive, if she knew then she'd come back to me"

"What's wrong with that?"

"Seriously? Did you just see what happened to her because of ME?"

"US! And we are what kept her alive, you can't let fucking Brad get in the middle if what you guys have! That's bull shit!" I swallow the tears I can but they just get caught in my throat and I make this weird pathetic croaking noise as I cover my eyes and turn from Liam.

"Who says it won't happen again."

"If it does you have all of us. You have to go in there, she won't last without you."

"No, she's stronger than that. she doesn't need me, or the life that comes with it. She has enough will power to get through it. In a few years, when she falls in love and has kids of her own. I'll keep her safe, nothing will happen to her. got it? I won't let it."

"Alright, your gonna realize what mistake your making...and when you do, were all here for you."

"I wouldn't count on it."